ELMO+NOT SO EMO..

Signs He's Not the One.. :p

2010-01-29T01:23:00.000-08:00

Some people say they "just knew" that they were dating their future spouse. But what about the rest of us? What happens when you're not sure if he's The One? If you're considering long-term commitment or marriage, it's time to ask yourself some tough questions. Below, 10 signs that may indicate he's not for you.

1. You have a list of things he needs to stop doing/saying/wearing if he wants your relationship to work. If you're fixating on his flaws, he's either not the one you want or you're not ready for a serious relationship. Cutting him loose allows you time to grow and gives you the opportunity to meet a guy whose flaws you can embrace -- or at least accept.

2. You don't trust him. A small dose of jealousy can be healthy, but if you're hacking into his email account, and going berserk when he goes out without you, something's wrong. If there's something about him that truly warrants your distrust, then perhaps he's not the right one for you.

3. You avoid conflict at any cost. Fighting is healthy. And, when done right (in the non-accusatory, rational sort of way), it can be a great way to air grievances, fix problems in your relationship, and come to a deeper understanding of each other. Ignoring problems is not the same as having no problems at all... even if it looks that way

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4. When you're sad, you don't turn to him for comfort. When you're a giant ball of tears and snot, do you lock yourself into the bathroom so he can't see you at your worst? If you're worried about scaring him away, one of you isn't ready for total commitment. Mr. Right should make you smile through your tears and be a calming, not stressful, presence.

5. One of you is struggling with an addiction. He's sweet. He's exciting. He loves you very much. But he loves his alcohol habit or his weekly gambling fix more. Don't fool yourself into thinking that you can change him or that your relationship will be strong enough to withstand the heartache that addiction will inevitably bring. An addict may be able to change, but he'll do so on his own terms.

6. You can't really imagine him as the father of your children. Ask yourself: Would he make a great parent? Is he financially responsible? Would he be an equal partner in your future together? If you have doubts, he's probably not the one.

7. Your long-term, non-negotiable goals in life are incompatible. You want kids; he doesn't. You go to church every week; he's an atheist. He lives in the country and doesn't want to move; you can't imagine ever leaving the city. Superficial differences can be overcome, but differences in basic values are harder to smooth over. Ask yourself: "Would I be willing to compromise on this?" If the answer is absolutely not, you may not be right for each other.

8. You don't respect each other. He puts you down in front of your friends and complains about you to his parents. You roll your eyes when he talks because there's just something about him that embarrasses you. A relationship without respect can't sustain itself.

9. You're not attracted to him. Physical intimacy is a hugely important component of a romantic relationship. If he doesn't do it for you, he's probably not your best long-term match.

10. On paper he seems great, but you have this strange feeling... Don't ignore your gut. You may get along on a superficial level, but if your instincts are telling you he's not the one for you, listen. That little voice inside your head does not lie.

My dearest kuya sent this article to me. I don't know where did he get this and why he sent it to me. hahahaha

BOSTON DRAMA..

2009-11-29T22:45:00.000-08:00

Novemeber is gonna end. Last day n nga eh. At the same time last day na din ng exam ko. God's will. Expect the unexpected.. :)

One month na lang 2009 will gonna end and hello 2010 na. Pero I'm not so sure kung san ako pupulutin after this day. As in this day. January '09 was a really tragic for me, every month. Puro kamalasan na lang ata ngyari saken the whole '09. I lost special things, I almost failed in rizal, I don't have a good bday, Lola Got sick, were bankrupt and my mom and dad wants to separate pero God is still good He did not let it to happen.. I know God have his own reason why he gave it to me. Siguro he wants to know how strong I am. pero Im not. I almost end up myself. the whole summer I suffered in mild depression, but I'm so thankful Lola never failed to cheer me up. It's really hard to keep crying everynight and no one wants to listen to you. kung hindi ako umalis sa bahay siguro asa mental na talaga ako nagyon.. :p I got mad to all people kahit wala sila kasalanan saken (displacement).. It's too late for me to realized lahat ng kabaliwan ko..

I'm so thankful to Dave kasi during my depression time dumating siya sa buhay ko. Super chneer up niya ko and he loves me always. Pero I'm not good enough talaga, nagwan ko pa din siya ng reason to get mad at me. Pero were still ok now. hayy I love him more than ever...

And to my Pride Lasalle, mga mare 8th years na tayo and yet were still kicking siguro dahil sa kaelmohan naten. the time na inway ko super sorry. as in super sorry kahit lumuhod pa ko gagawin ko. hehehe Thanks for understanding my kaweirdohan and super love niyo talaga ako. Your the greatest barkada ever. Thanks for always there for me, sa lahat ng prayers sa advise sa lahat ng laugh trip.. (Alyssa, Anne, Disa, Eds, Keith and Nicole) super love ko kayo. I won't trade you guys for anything.. :)

Twin. my lovable ate reya. No. 1 nakakaintindi saken kasi twin nga kami so parehas lang ngyyari samen always have connection hahaha twin u never failed to give me advise at swak naman lahat eh. Matigas lang talaga ulo ko. basta one thing I know we both want to find the guy who will love us forever and forever! hahaha basta sa wedding ha? see yah. hahaha

Best paw and mean gurl cindy. Sa lahat ng kaartehan haha super ngenjoy ako sa company niyo. were always no. 1 ayaw magpapatalo hahaha Lakas kasi ng fighting spirit niyo. why I love you guys kasi u always imposed to me to be POSITIVE. though minsan pumapalpak pa din tayo. pero sa dami naten kuda NO ONE CAN BEAT US! :d high five!

Bactols. I don't know if I still belong here. Basta I wanna thank you guys for being my friends for a short time. Lyndol u will always be my Angelina, my no.1 massager (sana naging masahe ka nalang) hahaha, Joyce, GbS will sucks! hahah always. but ilove you for that! and beyatch. Always open your gate kasi babalik ako ng park homes haha at kukuhanin ko sila coco, though ayaw sa ken ni railey haha laos ka na star! hahaha Park homes is the best town. 2nd to the ATC. haha at bakit ganon ang super yaman niya nakakainis. hahahah

Last. D u will always be in my heart. :) OK? I'll see you in BOSTON..

Mild Anxiety.. :D

2009-11-14T05:58:00.000-08:00

Hey hey! November is gonna end so soon and few weeks from now I'm gonna on the BIG battle of my life.. :D I'm so scared, but I really trust myself and I know God won't let me down.. I gonna give my bigggesst effort ant to the highest level of my best to TOP and passed the Board. Please guys I'm asking a lil' favor. Please pray for me to pass the Board. :) thanks so much.. :))

I don't wanna end this month so soon. kasi ayoko pa mgstay sa bahay, gusto ko ng work but how I'm gonna start? Pwde refer niyo naman ako. hehe hayy I wanna earn money siyempre wala na ko baon after review. I don't wanna be bummed naman no. Ang worthless ko. haha Hay Sana God will lead me to the right path. Kasi sobrang makasalanan ako. :(

I wanna say sorry sa lahat ng natapakan and nasaktan ko. Ang taas kasi ng pride ko but what can I do nasaktan lang din ako. hayyyyy so so sad.. pero there's one guy lang na ngpapasmile saken. Un classmate ko sa review an hindi ko magets kung ano ba talaga section niya. hahaha

Thank you for being one of my smiles.. :))

sweet come backk.. :D

2009-10-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

It's been a long long time ago since i post here a serious one.. I missed my blog and of course I missed my fellow bloggers... So what's the latest about me?? Ok Let's do it in a bullet form.. But can we start from the very beggining the reason why i ESCAPED here? Enough for intro. haha Here it goes...

SUMMER '09. It's my bday month! pero nothing especial happend. Just an ordinary day.. NO good bdays for me.. OMG. Im 21 na and still bummed! :(
My dad came back and still, Im lying on him.. Hindi ko pa rin nasasabi yung major reason ko why Im so depressed and why I did not took the June Board Exam. when I'm gonna tell him. I'm running out of time.. :(
Lola was admitted in USTH, Last June up to 1st week of july. she was DX: MOTOR NEURON DISEASE..I'll just keep praying that God will give us more time na makasama pa namen siya. And She will be celebrating her 78th Bday this coming Nov. 1. :)
We went to Baguio, with the whole family. It's our first time to went out of town complete! yehey!
There's a sweet comeback.. JET. But were over.. need to accept the fact.. :( Were not really mean't to be.. Sad.? Better..
There's a new guy.. Dave. I think he's the one I want right now. Complicated lang kasi we don't have a good foundation. It's started on a LIE.. How I can get him back? :c
I'm living again in a dormitory... REVIEW- NEED TO PASS THE NOVEMBER BOARD EXAM. I need to focus. Discipline. PRAY. and STUDY HARD!.. :)
How can I focus? DON have a new resembalnce, the guy in Review center. Oh well he's damn cute. eto na naman ako. si DON pa din. Hay...:/
There's a major issue in BACTOLS. and Idk what to do. BAHALA na.! They're matured enough..:p

OH yan na ha.. DEtailed na yan from day 1 na nawala ako. Sana you appreciate it.. Until next time... :D

two words...

2009-09-21T20:51:00.000-07:00

MOVING ON>>>

Im gonna clear it sooner.. fellow bloggers sorry sa ka beggaran ng blog ko. hahah im stilll bc.. but swear im pretty ok na.. thanks sa lahat.. :))

im back.. :)

2009-08-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

Guys i missed you all! sooner im gonna post on what happened to me for the past months.. :) ill update you. yehey!!! hahaha

depression..

2009-04-15T22:02:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid that one day magigising na lang ako na hindi ko na kilala un sarili ko. na one day mag ggive up na ko. few weeks from now bday ko. I know it will not be a happy one. It's a big boom bash for me. Im gonna tell mom and dad how I really feel. Im dying inside. and It's killing me. Im so so afraid.. depression syndrome here you come... :( Summer 2009 is not so good. Im gonna fall.. :) can you lend me your hand? Im sick of this situation. I bet I can't fight... Hay I'm just so afraid..

for a moment..

2009-03-10T20:38:00.000-07:00

I'm Back... :) But I'm gonna fix first my problems.. Ang daming ngyari. Wala pa rin ako sa mood. I'm sorry guys kung naabandoned ko tong blog ko for past weeks. promise I'm gonna update it sooner.. :)) until then..

why be bothered?

2009-02-12T07:21:00.000-08:00

Just a simple thought. Why should you be bothered if single ka then you don't gonna a have a date this Vday! :)) I don't feel bothered! definitely yes! haha Why? I have my friends that never leave me though committed sila sa bf nila. ang sweet di ba? :D

This coming Saturday is gonna be A big big day for lovers. yahoo! Busy na naman ang mga tindera sa Dangwa. oh flowers. .. Wala akong flowers na marereceived this Vday!. haha pero ok lang.. We have a plan after our review magdinner lang kami sa seaside then inom later. :) I think it will be fun. Drink. Playing cards. Dare. Oh our Vday is gonna be complete. hahaha....

I don't wanna attend a party kasi feeling ko super crowded na naman. Gusto ko magchill lang. haha For those singles you think Vday is just an ordinary day for you? hmmm Let me think, I guess it will be an interesting day. haha I'm gonna share what will happen in that day.. :p

Let me share something happened today..

This afternoon, hay naku. I was walking in the sidewalk ng bigla na lang me nag-away na group of guys in front of me. What should I do? RUN? I can't. Nastuck up ako sa kinatatayuan ko. In the middle of street nasuntukan sila. What's wrong with you guys? Nabbaliw na ba kayo? hahah..Umiwas na lang ako then naglakad ako ng mabilis. haha pero super kinabahan kaya ako. What if na lang naipit ako sa gulo. Hay thanks God I'm safe.. The other night na lang napaaway kami. SO mean! kasi my two friends got drunk, Me I'm just busy reading in my seat then bigla na lang sila nagbatuhan ng yelo. Then the next thing is bubuhusan ni Patty si Aika ng beer umiwas lang siya, unfortunately the guy next table from us un nabuhusan. Nag freak out siya lalo na un kasama niyang girl. "My shirt is all wet!", as he said. I wanna laugh pero baka bugbugin ako non. hahah.. Grounded! NO..:D

Ang brutal na ng mga tao lately.. XD

what i love:Art

2009-02-03T20:29:00.000-08:00

The start of February is cooool.. :))

First, we attended Jigger's 1st solo exhibit: SWING

Grabe astig talaga.. non estudyante pa lang siya, lupet na talaga niya. palagi xa nananalo sa mga contest. and un paitings pa niya is ABSTRACT. hindi ko talaga magets. pero pag pinaexplain mo sa kanya, "wow! ah un pala." amazed talaga kami.. :)) and to think pa na color blind siya. di ba ang galing galing niya talaga. kaya proud na proud sa kanya si Mitch... Super bongga ng exhibit niya, and I think hindi belong un cam ko dat day kasi lahat ng artist don naka SLR. pero I'm not an artist naman. Arte lang ako. :))

[jigger's painting]

Do you have any idea how much his painting is? Above picture, it is worth of P65,ooo. siguro asa 24x24 inc.lang un size. grabe no. sobrang mahal.. and un lower pix is P8,000 each frame. asa 4x4 inc. lang un. sobrang mahal! hahaha and lahat ng paintings niya sold out! ang Lupet mo talaga Master jigger.. hahaha Libre! :))) im so proud of you men!

[with master artist:jigger cruz]

[with piepie. jigger and mitch]

I envy this couple. :)) ang cute cute kasi nila tingnan eh then I heard sabi ni mitch "bakit ang ganda ng exhibit mo? " pacute pa si Mitch sa boses niya. so lovely.. And si Mitch, after grad niya mgfull time artist na din siya, panu na un pagiging nurse mo? hahaha so menchi! :) and ang kulet pa before, kasi me exhibit before sinama ni jigger un gawa ni Mitch then nabili un painting ni Mitch. hahaha ang galing galing niyo talagang dalawa.. :))

February:Starry star

2009-02-01T06:57:00.000-08:00

February here you come!! :)

Love is on the air..for those people who are deeply inlove. haha Can't wait for valentines for those whose taken?? And for those whose single do you feel any pressure for this month?? (kleng ok na ok un quote mo.. ) hahaha

This past few days, I mean the whole week hindi na ko napirmi sa dorm. Monday-I arrived in Manila,just have a dinner with my friends and then I preffered to stay in dorm.. Tuesday-I have a drinking session again and hindi ako nakauwi ng dorm.. Wednesday-another drinking session and pinilit ko umuwi ng dorm.. Thursday-we stayed to Aikas's house in Muntinlupa until Saturday morning. Saturday-I sleep over at Lyndol's house in Antipolo.. And Sunday-here I'm here in my freaking dorm..

I felt restless today, kahit na di ako sumama sa parade ng Sto. Nino but I felt exhausted. Ang aga ko natulog, 6pm pero nagising din kagad ako kasi napakaingay ng mga tao sa dorm na to!!! minsan na nga lang ako mgstay sa dorm ang ingay pa nila.hays kelangan ko bumawi ng tulog.. :(

[with star.ok i will kiss her forever! :D]

Super nag-enjoy ako sa pag stay sa bahay nila Aika. Wala kami ginawa kundi, mag tong-its,kumain at manood ng tv. haha at syempre lumandi sa kapatid niya na past 12am na kung unuwi..:)) hays pinuyat niya kami sa paghihintay ha. pero sulit naman.. :D

[floating graham]

Ang cute cute talaga ng kinalabasan ng graham namen.. :)) super pinaghandaan namen yan. haha nkakaloka un graham. floating talaga.. rich in nestle cream nga daw sabi ni Aika.. Pero masarap naman promise... Naubos nga namen eh tsaka ng kapitbahay.. hahaha :)) Bawal ang bulok! :D

[starry star]

Favorite place yan ni star. May pagsilip pa siyang nalalaman sa window. Wish niya makalabas ng bahay at magkaroon ng playmate.. ahaha kawawang star. Nagmununi muni sa bintana.. Non dumating kami sa bahay super saya ni star. talon ng talon. hahah kawawang star hindi din kasi siya nakasama sa dog show kasi kala namen kelangang ng tricks, pagkakataon na sana ni star na makagala ulet,, :))

[star and playmate]

Since wala nga playmate si star kasi busy ang mga tao sa bahay nila, yan na lang ang tangi niyang playmate.. :))enjoy na enjoy naman siya. sige pa star kagatin mo lang siya. hahaha pero I know mahala na mahal siya nila Aika, buong family.. Non paalis na kami, malungkot na naman si star.. Im gonna miss you star.. :)

people always leave

2009-01-28T05:07:00.000-08:00

This day is not a good day for me.. Early this morning I got 2 bad news. Someone is back in town and he got a new tattoo. And Lao, the barista in starbucks already have a gf. Then I think, the hell I care for them. They should not ruin my day, ayt?

The real story is, I was wondering if I was a good friends to my friends. Last night Disah asked me, "Mahirap ba kong kaibiganin? ". Then I told her that we will not be friends for 7 years if mahirap siyang kaibiganin. yeah! were friends for 7 years and I really treasured her. She's my good friend, and in the group she is the most "pikon" ever! hahaha We always have a small fight but just say one sorry and we gonna embrace the whole world again, that's how were friends are. I know I'm not a good friend, but at least I'm trying to be one.I'm a Bipolar, I have a really bad tempered and I wonder how my friends stick on me, then lately I was asking them if mahirap din ba ko kaibiganin. Edlyn said that I cannot please everyone, only those have defects in mind cannot appreciate the real me.

I hate users, I hate craps, I hate pretensions, I hate liars...

Friends they were important to me second to my family. I spent my whole life with my friends. Friends who appreciate who you are, who backstabb you and those who can lean on everytime. Everytime?? Another question in my mind. Then suddenly I remembered my friends who were busy with their bf/gf. Sometimes I cannot feel them, I feel I'm alone. They were so much dedicated to their partners, But I cannot blame their love for them. Sometimes, I just wish they were here because I really missed them.And sometimes I got mad because the time they can only remember me is when they need an advise because they their loves one left them and now they turning back on me.. Does it sounds crazy? Maybe I am, maybe the problem is me. It's all in my mind.. But I really don't like it.. Maybe I'm not in their position right now, because I am single. If you gonna ask me to choose between my bf or my friends, my answer now is I'm gonna choose my friends. Bf come and go but real friends stay. Maybe I'm not sure, but I gonna tell you I will not trade my friends for anything. They are my life, they complete me...

And then I'm gonna say,"People not always leave,some stay. "

:[

2009-01-26T05:29:00.000-08:00

I'm back in my mood.. I bet I'm gonna write a good one today.. It's past 9pm, I'm back in Manila, stuck up here in dorm.. Aika is insisting me to come with her, another drinking session because tomorrow is their 1st monthsarry. *kilig. but I preffered to stay here.. As well as honeythei waiting for me in her dorm, of course another drinking session. :D

I went in province this weekend. I'm so excited going home coz finally I'm gonna watch season 5 of OTH.. My life now is dedicated in that tv series. I love gossip girl but OTH is much love, everytime Im watching it, it touches my soul. I think I'm one of them..And after this blog is finished I'm gonna watch Season 6. can't wait for that.. :)) BTW, I'm not supposed to be back today in Manila, I don't have class but I felt boring in my 2-day stay in home. My home sucks! People were busy in their lives. My mom was busy chatting with our neighbors, my sister was always sleeping and sometimes she joined me watching OTH. and My brother is busy in her playmates. OH everyone sucks. and I need to be back in Manila. It's not nice to be back in home... :((

This afternoon, while I'm on my way in Manila, There's so many things that pop up i my mind..
It's about who I am, about who I am becoming...

*Lately I don't know myself. I'm being selfish.. I'm a 4th year nursing student, few months from now I'll be graduated. But still I can't figure out myself working in a hospital, saving lives of other people, sleepless, haggard and really dedicated in my work. I'm so scared that in my one mistake I'm gonna kill someone. I really want to help those who are in sick but I'm really scared, scared in committing mistakes. I'm liable in my every actions... Im not good in it, even in emotions. I hate watching Grey's Anatomy, it's my fear. Fear in sense that someday I'm gonna be one of them saving lives of people and I can't do nothing and just stare them because of panic. But them (medical team) were really good in saving lives, and me I think I'll just screwed up.Hell no! till now I don't know what to do. My classmates said that there will be a job fair in school tomorrow and I don't know if I can make it.. Good luck on me! :]

P.S

I have a new haircut. And it sucks! I really don't like it! I screwed up again.. :((

so what's the matter...

2009-01-17T05:06:00.000-08:00

One week had past and some of my problems were solved and there's still lil' things that I can't do anything about them..:))

1. My revalida. okey. with Ms. David. palpak and the rest ok naman. haha last one nalang in tuesday ok na un revalida ko. worth it naman un pag gising ko ng maaga at pag rereview. oh di ba.. kahit naman di masyado but still ngawa ko pa rin ng tama un ibang procedures.. :)

2. Pathophysiology. the 11 patho killed
my night.sleepless night! what the fuck!haha hay I'm not sure if tama un mga nagawa ko. ang hirap hirap kaya.. grabe. but I submitted it on time naman. sana tama naman un mga un. pinagkahirapan ko un. hahah and another set of items for next week. haha..

3. Tuition fee. ok. this morning I got my exam permit. pwede na ko mag exam this monday. kasi akala ko hindi ako makapg-exam kasi di pa dumadating yung pera ko. the issue on money is still unresolved. wala pa din un monthly allowance ko. so mega tipid ako..:p

Then I thought....

This past week, wala talaga ako kapera pera. pero alis pa rin ako ng alis. One week akong asa harbour square. wtf! di ko lam pano ngyari un. my friends never leave me. kahit wala akong pera sinasama pa rin nila ako. haha LIBRE! un un eh. hahaha but I really treasured them. much than ever! :))

[jigger.tina.mitch]

While doing my pathophysio @ starbucks, super nagulat ako kasi nakita ko don si mitch and jigger. the lovely couple ever. 3rd year anniv nila that day. howww sweet! haha naalala ko 3 years na din un EK namen. na super road trip lang kasi pag dating namen sa EK closing na. hahaha

Then.. last night. since wala kami pasok today, again asa harbour na naman kami. as usual inom na naman kami. parang wala namang bago.haha ang bago is nadala ko un cam ko. di ko nakalimutan.yahoo! ahhahaha galing galing ko raw. :))

So mega pictorial naman ever. before we go there napag-usapan name na aral lang talaga kami sa starbucks and uwi din kami ng 9pm kasi nga sunod sunod na un sleepless nights namen. hahaha..pero wala din nagawa. napainom pa rin kami. till 4am. ang saklap! hahahaha

[mga feelingera mag-aral..LOL]

OO. nag-aral kami. kunwari lang. haha non mga 10 pm na. cge inom na lang tayo. grabe. palong palo na naman. hahahah kahit 3 lang kami. gora pa din!:))

[ayan na talaga ang totoo. lasenggera!]

I won't drink daw. pero kapag andon ka na pala, balewala din. mapapainom ka pa din. di makapalag. hahaha. pero tangina. worst night ever naman eh. kasi basta. me mga taong 22 years old na pero grade 3 naman ang utak. hahaha peace! Im so mean.. amp.. so pamplipas ng stressed nag-ikot ikot muna kami. hahaha

trip trip lang. haha me amats na daw eh. trip to corrigidor pero closed na. sayang naman. ahaha. next time na lang. taeng aika to. un bell sa sa may BPI gusto din kuhain. pantay na pantay pa un pag elevate ng legs namen.hahaha at tong patty na to hiniram pa un walis at dustpan sa manong maglilinis. hahahah kenaman talaga! :))

mamatay ka naman sa lamig sa harbour. hahaha grabe. belong na belong ba sa jacket. para daw kamig sasayaw. LOL

after namen uminom..sila lang pala. ahahaha kasi konte lang tlaga ininom ko. kawawa na kasi sarili ko. 4am umalis na kami. natulog kami sa lodge ng 3hrs. the cheapest. beggar mode para mg diamond hotel. hahahaha makaidlip lang kahit konte. ok na. badtrip kasi dorm namen me pa curfew pang nalalaman. amp! hahah then un nga by 7am pumunta na kami sa school mgbayad ng tuition. then i got my permit na nga. after that, we decided na mgjogging kami sa perimeter ng malacanang. hahah walang ligo ligo ha. di pa talaga kami umuwi ng dorm.. LOL. so then, sabi ng guard san daw kami punta, sabi namen mg jogging. natawa xa kasi dahil sa attire namen. ahha para daw niloloko namen sila. hahha but then on. ng jogging nga kami. hahahha

Lakas trip lang.mga adik talaga kami. ayaw umuwi ng dorm. at ng jogging pa talaga. haha pinasok namen un siranga baricade. baka hulihin kami. mgrally na langa kaya kami no? haha me pawarm -up pa si Aika na nalalaman. haha ayos naman get up naman sa jogging di ba? haha natatwa pa kami kay Aika. nakailang take ng pic don sa jumping kasi di xa lumulutang di niya kaya sarili niya. hahaha ang bigat kasi.LOL buti pa ko. hahahhaha

After jogging, we really felt tired sino naman hindi di ba? takteng coke vendo yan. di gumagana. ahahah we end up tuloy sa SM. napadpad pa kaming SM ng hindi naliligo. hahah.. the END. ntatamad na ko.h hahaha ng ending is I called mom, saying wala na talaga akong pera. hahahha

yan na lang muna. super haba kaya neto. comment ha! :))

give me one.. :)

2009-01-11T03:36:00.000-08:00

hey hey.. it's freaking cold now.. It's Sunday, and I have a 7am class. grabe. super nanginginig un tuhod ko this morning while taking a bath! pobreng dorm walang heater. haha "beggars can't be choosy", remember! hahaha.. :)) After our class, we attended a mass. hay.. I feel renewed. may ganon? haha kasi kanina nafeel ko na nakafocus tlaga ako sa mass. yey! :))

After lunch,Paw asked me to go to a money changer. for her yen. she's beggar na rin. hahaha Unfortunately, all money changer were closed. too bad! hahaha
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I really felt lazy today.. Natatamad ako mg-aral for my revalida tomorrow. ang dami pa naman non. but swear, after doi this Im gonna read them all.. hahaha BEat it baby! :)) i Need to focus. this is the last. konting tiis na lang.right?? :)) kasi every time Im about to read I felt sleepy. major tranquilizer talaga ang reading. hahahaha

teka.. mag-aaral na nga ako. I want to post something here lang. hahaha

P.S.

may confession ako. I smoked again. 2 nights ago. kasi Ilove the black menthol. ahahaha Sorry.. :p

I want again it. ubos na kasi! haha i got one pack from Aika's Bf.from Japan...at si Patty nghanap kanina sa mall wala xa mabili. Whose from Japan out there or someone who have it. Give me One rim. LOL. hahaha

I just want it. BAD.. :))

still

2009-01-09T02:23:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY.

We don't have class because of feast of black nazarene. I'm really bummed here in my freaking dorm.. uhm. I decided na. i gonna sangla may fone. kachorvahan lang. so patty and I look for a pawnshop. it will be my first time. I dont know how. nkakatawa but I need money until Jan. 20. then my samsung fone, P1500 only. wtf.i thought it's kinda 3k plus. ang mura grabe! then kelangan pala kasama un charger. i forgot to bring it. malay ko ba. hays. balewala rin un pagpunta namen don. and non pabalik na kami sa dorm nahulog pa ko sa kanal. un left foot ko. namali ng step. it sucks! really.. it'smy karma i bet. kasi natatakot ako don sa mga deboto ng Nazarene. naka bare foot lang sila. ang beggar tingnan. PEACE.. i just don't get the idea of it.. LOL.

Friday night. off to party. NO MONEY.still! :(

but I guess we will be goin to harbour, with Aika and Paty. kapal muks ko sumama wala n nga akong pera. bahala. kasi we need to shot raw. kasi broken hearted daw si Aika. hahaha uhm. freakin ex slut of her new bf. LOL.

I don't know what to do. Im freaking bored here! I wanna go out! I need money. I wanna get home... As paw said, "Mabuti pa sa probinsya di mo pproblemahin yun pera.Libre pa yun kain.".. hays.. I missed my home.. :(

MONey oH mOney!

2009-01-08T02:58:00.000-08:00

ok. i got a big problem. always. MONEY. one day pa lang ako sa Manila then un na kagad ang problema ko. wtf!.. i just have 1k in my pocket. then i need to pay pa 300 for the lost cam. shet. then 700 till sunday. kaya kaya? huhuhu... i dont want to ask my mom some money kasi she knows and I know pinapadalhan ako ng dad ko ng money. eh hello ubos na nga. 27 pesos na lng sa atm ko, hahaha

i know it's too hard. nababaliw na kaya ako kakaisip pano ko ibudget yun remaining money. amp talaga. huhuhu...

i can't think now how i will earn money.. benta ko na kaya sarili ko. hahaha wala bibili sa taba kong to. hahaha seriously, i need some money. wala akong choice. benta ko na lang kaya mga gadgets ko kaso hahanapin nila saken yun eh. sangla ko na lang kaya un fone ko? u think? mababaliw na ko. nag tagal naman mg Jan. 20 para me pera na ko. huhuhuhu... then I need to pay my tution pa. mababaliw na ko.. hahahaha

teka wla ba kayo suggestion...

PLEASE...

HELLO 2009

2009-01-07T03:12:00.000-08:00

hello 2009. hello fellow blloggers. im back!! :)

start of classes tomorrow for me. kasi wala pa rin akong sched ng duty. sh*t talaga, namimiss ko na un uniform ko.. :) 2 and half mos. na lang ang ipapasok and hopefully grad na ko. yahoo!!! :D

ok.im here again in my f*cking dorm.. MALAS.. why??? naconfiscate un mga illegal aplliances ko. un laptop at flat iron ko. DAMN.. as in! gusto ko tuloy maiyak pag higa ko sa bed ko. grabe naman ang salubong saken ng new year. wala na nga ako pera then kelangan ko pa tubusin yun. hays.. PERA pa rin ang problema ko till now. everyday! LOL.

gusto ko na tuloy bumalik ng bahay.. kung nalaman ko lang kagad na walang pasok this friday sana di na ko bumalik dito sa F*cking sh*t na dorm to!!!! kakainis.. pano ko tuloy plantsahin uniform ko bukas. huhuhuhu wala din ako pambayad don.! hays grabe. mababaliw na ata ako. hahaha parang hindi ata maganda un pasok ng 2009 saken. amp...

I know i screwed last year. and this year will be my best year. I'm goin to fulfill my parent's dream.. 2009 graduate. and board passer. awoooh! hahaha

I BADLY NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.. :))

kudaan xmas party

2008-12-19T17:24:00.000-08:00

BN45 xmas party.. :)

uhm.. not really excited. haha pero the best naman. sa una lang. why? complete attendance with our beloved adviser. yeah. worth it un conrtibution na 350. maganda naman un place and foods are lorve. thanks kuda. galing mo talaga mg hanap ng venue. hahaha

[kudAan 2008]

we have a good start of program. we have a surprise guest for kuda dabid. xempre his one and only gf. si AI.. fresh from Japan. :)) naiyak naman si dabid sa saya. hahaha kilig to the bones..:)

[japan lovers]

so the program starts na after surprising dabid. we have so many award pa. ka chorvahan hahaha and guys what award i got? ms. kenkoy 2008. taena mukha ba kong kenkoy ? haha dahil ba un sa mga banat ko? natatawa naman ako. thumbs down! i think napasaya ko naman sil sa mga kuda ko. hahahaha

[Ms. kenkoy 2008]

and the party begins. super bongga naman ever. with something in head pa. and mask ever. kabaklaan na naman ba eto? hahahha drink to the max. haha tequila fuck. hahah tr aydor talaga.. hahaha :p teka before that me ngyari pang event kasi nawala un cam ni Ai. grabe nakakahiya tuloy sa kanya. lagi na lang may event na walaan sa section namen. i bet me clepto talaga samen. ayoko mgbintang pero nakakainis talaga. kasi we have to share 300 for the lost cam. grabe naman no! hay its not justice. ahahah pero ok lang nakakhiya naman kasi talaga. mamatay na un kumuha. hahaha mgkapigsa ka sa mukha! hahahah

[ang dami niong kuda]

that night is traydor. kasi naman nalasing ako. suka to the highest level. just like my world is rotating. haha fuck shit kang tequila ka. hahaha nilasing ko un mga classmates ko pero ako un nalasing. bakit ng kaganon? hahaha tae talaga. hahahhaa

[sh*t ka tequila ka. haha]

and im so deeply fascinated with sophia. haha ang baby nila glends and jd. naman! mukha akong baliw. mukha akong si sisa. all night with sophia. hays hindi maganda ang kinalalakihan environment ni sophia.. :)

[with sophia baby!]

thanks much sa lahat ng classmates ko. certified kuda talaga kayo! hahahha sa organizer ng party the best.. enjoy talaga.:) un un eh. thumbs up! hahahaha

[the mean girls]

why I'm so sick???

2008-12-18T06:29:00.000-08:00

tomorrow will be the last day of school for 2008.sounds exciting but not for me.. :p i still have exam @ rizal. F*ck! 5chpaters but still Im on first chapter. hahaha NAKAKATAMAD BASAHIN ANG RIZAL! :))

It's a tiring day.. and I'm still sick. I have colds. and my ilong is BARADO. shet. DYAHE talaga. it's kinda NGONGO haha. and Beggar! :)

I'm not in a good mood. hate hate it! too cold.. can't take this. I'm gonna die. just like having a lip burn. a f*ckin' bullshit. hahaha

I have a big problem. MONEY!!!!!!! CAN you lend me some andaluchi??? hahaha hay. better sleep and rest for tomorrow's event.

ang daming KUDA. It's too short naman diba? :p

ONE LOVE.. XD

2008-12-17T04:51:00.000-08:00

8 days before xmas.. :) cold xmas for me?? iguess so.. i got cold last night after watching join the club's gig. and now, im sneezing too much.. :( too Bad for me. i still have 2 days before xmas break. Friday night will be our last xmas party in my college days. hope it will be a lot of fun.. :xd

I'm not asking for too much this xmas. I just want One Love for everbody.. my xmas will be cold. i have no Bf. and D just left today.. leaving on a jet plane.it kills me. and now I'm feeling half-alive. i don't wanna be sad but it always attack on my mind.. :c

One love for my single friends..

for honey thei. Let's keep on waiting for the right one. baka ntraffic lang xa. you still have 8 days before xmas.
for keith. hey i think you really need to have one na. it's been years ka ng single. wag ka na maxado masungit. hahaha
for edz. i know it's too hard for you too chose.ang dami mo kasing boilet. haha
for kleng. hoy mg bf ka na. kahit minsan lang oh. wag mo ng hintayin yung sushi mo! haha

One love for their complicated status..

for cindy. u have to chose na talaga before 2008 will end.baka bangungutin mo pa kami. haha i want the best for you. kaw lang may alam nian.:)
for paw. i know you still love him. but ur just too afraid.. go on bitch! :))
for ate ymel. hey ur getting old. haha i know naman ur still figuring out whose the best. ahaha

One love for my taken friends..

for nicole. ur deeply inlove with S. and im too happy for you. Hot xmas for both of you..:)
for yssa. always HP. i can't ask for more for you mare. smile always with your baby.. :)
for anne. super swerte mo na kay lester. wag na maxado away..hehe

One love for my family.. for my mom and dad. sana maging ok na sila.no more tears..:)

and of course ONE BIG LOVE for me.. :)

I will always wait D... :) and love him.. :))

pride's xmas

2008-12-13T05:09:00.000-08:00

It's been a year na ngkasama kami ng buo. But still hindi talaga mkompleto. sad! yesterday i make it talaga na makasama sa kanila kahit na super pagod na pagod ako. From Pangasinan then derecho Lipa na kagad ako. I have a pilgrimage kasi kahapon sa Manaog then napagplanuhan namen na mag xmas party na kami kahit hindi makakapunta si disah kasi wala na talagan ibang days available ang lahat. lahat biglaan lang. un exchange gift biglaan din. dapat me gift na then tsaka magbunutan. hindi ako nkabili ng gift kawawa naman ang nabunot ko. si keith! hahaha hinintay pa naman nia ako sa Manila then sabay kami umuwi ng Lipa. past 9pm na kami nkaalis ng Manila. then past 11 na rin kami nakarating ng Lipa.. :( we just drink in Jowees. first time namen don at ang gulo pala don. hahaha pero wala naman umaway samen.. :)

[eds,tina,keith@jowees]

we continue the bonding momentum sa bahay nila anne. ang bahay ng barkada. hahaha hays ang namimiss ko don eh yung masasarap na luto ni tita alice. the best talaga. hindi ka magugutom.ang sarap sarap. pero un mga tao don hindi tumataba bakit ganon anne? hehe

[keith and ane stolen. ang takaw niyo!]

ang dami nilang chikka. ako nakatulog na ng maaga. hindi kasi sila ngpunta ng Pangasinan. 10 hrs ang byahe. at 1hr lang ako don. hahah taena ginagaya nila yang line kong yan. hahaha

[owie's bear ang cute cute.sarap hug]

Then after lunch we watched movie. Quarantine. Ayun tatlo lang kami kasi si Anne may NSTP pa. beggar. haha ayun nawala na xa momentum ng bonding. .....

FINALE...
i got a pic with Carl. Anne's bro. ang cute kasi, dati paslit lang yan. aba ngyon binatang binata na. hahaha... may video pa kami.. nakakatawa un. kasi ready na kami mgpapic pero nakavideo pala, lanya na anne yan. hahaha

[with Carl.ang cute cute.. :)]

magic day

2008-12-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

As usual.im off to duty for three days and I'm a certified bummed in our house. yeah it felt bad though. For one day I finished watching 3 dvds and it sucks in y eyes. hahaha Just friends, How to Lose friends and Alvin and the chipmunks. yeah it was a nice movies but my eyes got ache after watching. hahaha and the following days i watched the full house series I'm on y 8 episodes. I watched it for twice but i still want it for the third time. haha i really love the series. i love rain!!! hahahaha...:p

And now I'm back in Manila again. back to my tomorrow's class. but before going back to dorm, Ate Ymel asked me to go with in world trade. for celebrity's bizaare. oh well not bad since maaga naman ako nakarating ng Manila.:) and thanks. manlilibre siya. kasi mayaman na siya. me work na. soxal. hahah i hope i have work too. :(

[Go Team Philippines.. ]

I got so amazed in magic. tinitinda din nila. but you have to buy it first before they will tell you the trick. and it's too expensive. hahaha the deck cost 200 but we get it for P100. BARAT hahah.. but the coin one. when u bite it, matutupi siya.with the use of your teeth??? the hell! hahaha and it cost P600.. oh NO! as in NO talaga. hahahah then while were busy making kulit the other magician, next to us is the cute guy. tawa ng tawa sa magic. haha hay naku. bumili na pala xa the other day. and lahat daw binili nia. ngrecruit pa siya ng friend. kasi naiinis raw siya when he knows the trick after buying. he bought the magic coin din. un daw un pinakakainis. me nakafold lang pala don para when u bite the part of the coin makakagat mo nga. asar naman talaga. ahahaha NAISAHAN siya. hehe pero ang gwapo nia talaga. swear! and so funny and kind. mgtayo na raw kami ng show. MAGIC show! ahhaha.. NICEEEE!!! :) i didn't get his name. too Bad!!!

I found the inspiration in the most unlikely place today.. thanks.. :))

XD

2008-12-04T05:39:00.000-08:00

something caught my attention. i spent 3days in Batangas. then one afternoon, after Karen and I ate some streets foods while walking home Karen told me that the there's something on the sky. sabi niya, "Ate tingnan mo un oh parang mukha." then i looked up to the sky. nakita ko para ngang face :) ganan oh. hahaha un 2 stars with a smiling moon.. ang galing. na amazed kaming mgkapatid. and na amazed ako sa kapatid ko kasi ang galing naman nia mg observed. mas una pa xa nakapansin kesa saken. ang galing galing. aplause to my sis. hahaha ang galing talaga. haha.. :)) then biglang asa news na kagad. ang bilis bilis naman. haha.. :p

buti pa ang sky nka smile.. samantalang ako. hmp..

tagaytay zipline.. :))

2008-12-03T06:56:00.000-08:00

it's tagaytay event. after leaving the retreat house we went to picnic grove.to have some fun raw. it's sunday. family day. and super dami ng tao sa picnic grove. i dunno if im gonna enjoy. then when nina asked me to ride on a zipline my adrenaline boost out! :)) this is it! to oevercome my fear of heights. haha superman pa un stunt ha. and we decided na mg single ride na lang kami para daw mas masaya ang thrill. haha ok no prob. ako pa! hahahah

kapag andon ka na. mejo kabado before. pero kapag ngstart na at umandar don kana mapapasigaw ng super lakas. i don't wanna look sa baba feeling ko kasi mhuhulog ako. imagine babagsaka ka sa kakahuyan. and mahanap pa kaya if ever mhulog ka don. hahaha pero ang saya saya. feeling mo talaga nkakalipad ka. haha me ganon??? :))

[with cindy. zipline mode]

the best experience talaga to. then non pabalik na sabay na kami ni cndy. were running out of time na kasi. pero mas masaya talaga kapag single. haha non ko lang napatunayan na kaya ko pala sumali sa fear factor. hahaha

[si paw to. galing no? hehe]

teka....

nawwala pa un pic ko na single ako. meron na pala. un nakaframe na. hahaha

BN45 RETREAT

2008-12-03T06:04:00.000-08:00

hey hey!! loooookkk!!! :)))

[ano ba un tinitingnan ko? hindi ko maalala.:))]

[daming kuda!:p]

hey hey guys.. im back. after a 5days of vacation im back to NORMAL.. :)) why? fresh from my retreat and it helped me a lot to over come my fears. fears in supernaturals. haha yeah i afraid. afraid in ghost stories. then before palang kami pumunta ng tagaytay there's a lot of rumors na me mumo daw don sa house. the PIANO raw.i don't want to believe kasi im afraid. ngtatapang tapangan lang ako. hahaha....

[with alren. ano sinisilip mo jan? :))]

BEFORE...

[with kudaero. after i found my fone. yey!]

ngstop over sa petron sa SLEX.. with my mean girls we went to starbucks and bought some frap. then chill sandali sa labas. picture picture.. so ako naman nawili na sa kakapicture. hanggang sa makarating na sa mcdo. 2kms away from starbucks. then sabi ni cindy picture daw kami sa fone ni paw. non ko lang narealized na wala sa ken un fone ko. NAWAWALA un fone ko! i left it in starbucks, sa table sa labas.. i run., so fast as in fast! OMG.. andon pa rin un fone. as is. kung ano itchura non table non iniwan namen ganon pa rin pagbalik ko. haha siguro mga 5 mins. ko na naiwan un fone ko don. grabe talaga. hindi rin napansin ng mga classmates ko. :)) buti nalang. buhay pa rin un fone ko. hehe. thanks God! talaga.. hays.. thanks thanks much talaga.. oh. NO! :))
[that's my fone. after this shot umalis na ko. ayun naiwan ko fone ko. T! :)]

RETREAT....

[BN45.retreat]

overnight lang yun retreat namen. yeah it's so bitin. dapat nga hindi pa matuloy kasi wala un priest kasi he had an accident last retreat. buti na lang me nahanap si sir manalili na substitute. and un kapalit super Nice!!! :) the best. haha

the activities. hindi ako masyado natuwa. wala kasi masyado ginawa. pero super natouched naman ako sa stories nia. He's great! bale un ginawa lang namen is kumain ng kumain. solved naman sa foods. haha.. :)) pero the best tlaga un gabi. un ang pinakahihintay ko eh. un inuman session. syempre ang inyong lingkod ang tanggera!! haha marami rin naman kami eh. around 15 lang talaga un uminom. un iba kasi KJ! haha. naka 6 bottles lang kami ng granma. beggar no? beggar can't be choosy! hahaha.. grabe. un na tinamaan na kami lahat. don na talaga ng momentum. open forum. grabe. as in lahat totoo. labasan talaga ng galit. un least person na ineexpect mo sa inuman sila pa un andon. un iba talaga wala pakisama eh. dami kuda! hahaha

TULUGAN NA....

guess what guys! di ba sabi ko un me supernaturals na stories is un piano. and un room na naasigned samen is un room na katapat ng piano. grabe as in pag open mo ng dood un piano kagad. pero thanks God walan naman ako naexperience na something.nakatulog naman ako ng maayos.. hays. kpag lasing ka talaga wala ka na mararamdaman. haha

the BEST tlaga..grabe!! :)))

[BN45.retreat@tahanan sta. monica]

why why love???

2008-11-24T05:03:00.000-08:00

fresh from my duty. and im on my mood to post a new entry. im still in my hang over in watching "why why love" for two consecutive nights.haha from 7pm up to 4am im watching the series. still im not yet finish watching it. im on the last episode. i want it to finish last night but i felt so damn sleepy na. it's about 4am when i go to bed. later, after this im gonna watch the last episode! yehey!

hmm... i love this korean series. it really touched my heart. may ganon? haha..

the characters are Rainie Yang (Stephanie), Mike He(Joshua) and Kingone Wang(Joseph).

they were also the characters in "Devil Besides You". i love that one din. My younger sister and I watched the series together. But in why why love im watching it alone. kakalungkot naman. hehe Karen can't wait it to watch the whole series. kasi naman pinapanood nia lang un sa tv every afternoon. since wala ako tv sa dorm i watched it ahead. haha

hay grabe. i can't believed that this series will make me cry. ang arte no. kasi naman nakakainis. ang ganda kasi. hehe. ayoko naman kay stephanie feeling ko kasi masyado trying hard and too good to be true yung character. haha ang haba ng hair nia ha.. hahaha why i love this series is just because of MIKE HE (Joshua).. shet! that's the type of guy i really want. laglag panty ko.haha...

MIKE HE..

First, i do love his hair. Just like Tatsi. uhm. the hair is the first thing i adore to aguy. yeah boy!
Second. he's Devil. yeah i want an evil one. feeling ko kasi iba talaga sila mgmahal. and when it comes to a relationship they were so serious and ready to fight for their loved ones.

Last. HE's rich! haha. no! im kidding. the last thing is the characters i want in a guy is the one his playing on.. i want a bad and good guy!

basta HE is my latest addiction. can't take it. somehow i compare him to Tatsi. but I think they were different from each other! :) just only they have the same hair..

hay naku kinikilig ako.. :))

"Why does he need to make me fall when he's not going to catch me? It hurts but..it hurts me more when I see him catching someone else while I'm falling. "

WHY WHY LOVE???

may ganon? true!

2008-11-21T23:52:00.000-08:00

it's nice to be back. and back to BASICS... :)

[tina.cindy. paw. No! my pimple. :p]

mean girls attack..last sem to be together. still three of us kicking. kahit 3 lang kami na ngakakaintindihan sa classroom were very happy to stick together. me sarili nga daw kami mundo. the hell we care. me ganon? true! haha..

[with best paw]

paw and cindy is much much love. these two gals won't let you down. other person feels inis or asar with them but me? i really love them. naku naku me ganon? hahaha... the way they laugh and tease me makes heart thunder. hahaha. ano daw? hehehe

[hehe kulet. singit lang ako dito]

lately kasi ayaw mawalay samen ni cindy. palagi nia kami tinotoxic sa lovelife nia. hehe hmmm. kung san xa masaya don kami. sabi nga ni paw "kanya kanyang kati lang yan! ".. haha me ganon? :)) inuman everyday sa condo ni cindy. dios ko. inabandona na namen ni paw ang dorm. every minute magkakasama kami 3. sabi ni paw gusto daw nia palagi attach xa samen. sabi ko ano xa me alzheimers. hahaha basta i treasured them much.. :))

random update..

2008-11-19T03:55:00.000-08:00

im freaking tired. i don't have duty for 3 days and i preffered to stay in batangas. all i did there is sleep for the whole day. i really felt exhausted everyday. because of my drinking session. haha from thurs night up to sat night i was drinking and got drunk. and this last sunday i watched CB and rihanna's concert. so i didn't get enough sleep. oh.. my head still aching and wanting for more sleep.! .:))

.....................

now. im back in dorm and not yet ready fo tomorrow's class. i wanna get back in batangas! :)) anyways im so happy that fs is finally okey and all my friends list were back! i think im gonna make another one account. oh no! haha..
....................

i was thinking awhile ago after getting my one month allowance to be "tipid and wise" in my daily expenses. im about to buy a new dress and shoes but i havea second thought not to have it now.. i need to budget my allowance and have savings na tlaga. everyone is in chaos. even us! oh what's happening in the whole wide world! haha
......................

im so sad when my dad told me that my ninong is one of those 5 people who will be send to philippines. kasi they need to pull out some crews in their ship. (not so sure) sad because dad told me that he don't have enough savings and he didn't finished already his contract. well as ninong said he will keep on faith with God fo maybe it's his plan for him. so maybe this christmas we will be together. but i want him to stay for more longer there. ill pray for you ninong..:))

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and the final update is i watched CB and rihanna's concert. uhmm. aplause! both of them performed very well. galing! haha CB danced so sexy. ELMO. haha even rihanna she wears so damn sexy bikini. haha astig.. :) the last song of rihanna Umbrella CB joined him in stage ang they sing together. so lovely.! haha.. kakakilig kaya when CB hugs rihanna. ever. haha the hottest concert in 2008 tlaga.. hmm. no regrets for watching it. sana sa uulitin. the BEST. i think love ko na rin si CB, di ba ate cha? hahaha :))

[master.tina.ate cha@ CB and rihanna's concert]

[meet the kids. gawd.:)]

dream team

2008-11-11T05:46:00.000-08:00

2nd day of duty.. not so toxic at NICU. nakakatuwa lang tignan ang mga newborns na nagsisiksikan sa isang crib. non una akala ko twins sila un pala share lang sa crib. so beggar. haha.. ganon talaga kapag government hospital.wala tayo magagawa DON... pero we gave them much much care! :)

after duty xempre inuman session. just to relieve stress. kumbaga chill mode lang. hehe. nawiwili kasi.. again with my former dutymates. sa harbor square.. and nagkaron ng BEST moment.. let me share it..

i was talking with my ate over the fone then my friends teasing me na papicture ka na don tina oh. . deadma lang kasime kausap nga ako. after talking with my ate i pay attention to the crowd busy having a picture taking then i asked them "sino ba yun?".. sabi nila, "gaga si bembol roco!papicture ka na.". ah xa nga the one who is super skin head. hehe.. ayoko nga mgpapicture nakakahiya. haha.. then he's walking towards us so ako naman eh mega say ng "hello po!" ang mega wave. ahaha.. at nakakagulata bigla xa umupo next table on us. niloloko xa ng mga friends ko na shot po.. hehe. then sabi nia if pwede raw ba makijoin samen. xempre why not di ba? haha.. aun mega join na xa samen. and we BELONG na. hehe.. super cool xa. super bait. dami kwento.. showbiz. haha

[dream team with mr. roco]

in over all. he have a good sense of humor. and hes really kind. imagine he doesn't know us pero nakijoin xa at mega kwento ng buhay nia. di ba ang sweet. he trusted us. i think he's a good dad. malapit n nga pla bday nia sa NOV. 20. greet him guys. haha.. ang kulet. we asked much about his twins.si felix and dominic. hehe.. :)) ang cool talaga.. :)0

[JAPAN.ang corny daw sabi nia.:p]

to Mr. Bembol Roco super thanks po for being nice to us and we really have fun and thankful to have a good conversation with you. until next time po. same place same time. hahaha...

it happens for a purpose.. :))

hello second sem!

2008-11-09T20:09:00.000-08:00

today is a BIG day! :)

why? first day of class for the last sem. (hopefully it will be my last sem)...

first day. first duty in DR. toxic? always.. haha:p

5 hours of standing makes me sigh nalang. bawal magcomplain. :)) i have new groupmates, pero ok naman sila. ok na ok. naksama ko na sila once uminom and still they were my classmates..:) but i missed my former groupmates... *wink!

and another 2days duties for this week.. kelangan ko ng sleeping pills to get enough sleep. fuck my insomnia!:(

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NOV. 10..

happy happy bday for those people who are celebrating their bday today..:) GAIL and betchai.. yehey! saya saya naman...

wondering what will happened the following days.. xmas is coming.. hello to cold xmas! :p honey you gonna find someone to be with this xmas. stat! :))

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shorty..:)

2008-11-08T11:26:00.000-08:00

UPdate for a moment..

im gone for one week. why? im gonna tell in my next blog. haha

NOW.. im having a drink with my dutymates. surprised. sweet. from manila pumunta sila ng batangas just to have a drink with us. di ba sweet? :p

i just wanna tell that im so upset for those people who invade my privacy.. not much bitter kasi tag sili na ngayon. haha...

im gonna nice. i hate hating everyone. im sick about that.. for the mean time. im gonna behave.. hmm... this is nothing to do with you baby.. :)) much love for us!

one BIG shot...

2008-10-27T19:56:00.000-07:00

last day of sem wala na ginawa kundi uminom.:)) i wanna spend much time for my duty mates. kasi next sem we will be apart from each other. nanlagas na un group namen. huhu im gonna miss everyone. wala na ko kasabay, wala na kasama mang-asar, gumawa ng bagong jokes. gawd! i used to be with these crazy guys.. then bigla na lang silang mawawala. wth!...

[one big shot for BN45-D]

and before we separate inuman galore and yosi galore ang nagyyari. momentum mo to pat! hey hey guys im not ok. im sick every time i'll remember na hindi na tayo classmates. it's weird. ilove BN45-D much much. my heart belongs to you guys... am gonna kill anyone na aaway senyo! haha...:))

[joyce im gonna miss your moves!:)]

see you around at school next sem guys. sana same sched pa rin. sarap nio sapakin. iniwan nio kami ni pat. huhuhu... the exchange gifts. much awaited! hahaha

until next shot.. :))

usual..

2008-10-26T05:21:00.000-07:00

there's nothing NEW. and NEW is not for me...

im back in manila. after 4days of staying at home (Batangas) I really felt bored now.. hOme is not sweet anymore..:( bit by bit i feel the emptiness. . were on beggar mode.. i duno why.. i just don't want to put blame on anyone. as long as mom, dad and my two siblings are okey i won't react too much.. as long as everyone want's it... :(

this would be my last sem in college. last money.can't wait to earn money by my own blood. chaos! im gonna make this sem worth full! am gonna miss school. im gonna miss everyone..:)) i hope there will be NEW on me this sem..

the LA UNION isn't come yet.because of busy scheds. yesterday, i was staring those people skiing.damn! i want it too..sobra! but am alone. alone and shit doin that one. haha..i'll just wait those people who will find time to go with me in wake boarding..:) count 1..2..3.. nothing!

one thing is i want to go to EK.. kahit star city na lang. hahaha! i wanna shout shout loud!! i know am not feeling ok this past few days. gawd. im sick for those people who taken me for granted. ouch! :(...

enough..until then...

the only NEW is...

D have a NEW girl..

kill me now..:((

break..

2008-10-22T09:35:00.000-07:00

hellow fellow bloggers. i'm back! im gone for 1 week. namiss ko sobra ang net. wtf!
thanks God ok na ulet un laptop..:)) back to net life na ulet.. this past few days sinulit ko na kagad un sembreak.. 5 consecitive sleepless nights. and alak pa! haha.. ok guys bumalik na ko sa dati kong buhay ang pagiging lasenngera! haha.. damn. narcoleptic tina!..

i stayed 5 days sa house nila thea. super belong na ko sa family nia. un dalawa niang kapatid na nilalandi ko. haha at un luto ni momi the best! very supportive na dadi sa gimiks. yeah! love the family..:)) and of course ang alak ni nico won't forget LL..:))

gimiks. inom. chill. food trip. landi mode.

that's the best part of growing up. after a stressful life at school. sembreak is much awaited!
but still im still waiting for LA UNION! surfing is the BEST!. hmm.. when when?? come with me guys..:))

2mos. na ko hindi umuuwi ng batangas. mom misses me alot! i guess. haha.. uwi na ko tomorrow. yikkee. so excited for that. im gonna stay there for 4 days.. it must be love. the foods.. but im on diet mood.. hmm...i shud lose weight!!!! im desperate to lose weight. haha

enough for now guys...:)) need to sleep first...:))

i miss everyone. i just want to update you guys..:))

tsaka na ulet kwento un whole story..:0

happy???

2008-10-11T23:15:00.000-07:00

im on the blog mode today..:) i don't know why i feel happy today... there's something new i can feel it..

i was absent for last night gimik at emba... i have a second thought to go. but i just chose to stay in dorm and hug my pillows. though ate got mad on me i know she will call me today. and she did. and she's on her way to visit me na. hoolaH! i know that she's inlove right now with baby deni. and am so happy for them. yikke! *kilig!

my happiness starts last night. i was busy texting winith S. starting making bola with him. kasi the other night im making bola na tlaga with him.i said "i like him alot". then kagabi sabi ko it just a trippin' lang. he believed me pa naman daw. 75% it's true that i do like him. 25% i doubt it. haha. let's say that he's getting special on me..:)

and so makapal face ko ever to tell him what i feel him right at this moment. that i like him a lot. yeah am so malandi ever. hehe. i want him. just like wanting D before. D is lost.nawala sa puso ko! super duper corny. ngsawa. no one believes when i say "ngsawa na ko kay D. stop na ko." why they don't want to believe me. haha.. it's true. all my feelings for him gone.totally! nalipat kay S.. obssession starts now with S im gonna kill myself again. haha..:)

so my happiness now is all ABOUT S..

im so so so inlove.???
NOT sure sweetie. am gonna fall on you..:p

i hate you that much...

2008-10-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

it's all about the people i hate so much this past few days..
who they are?

DORMATES.badtrip na badtrip ako sa kanila. kasi they keep on talking loud early in the morning. ngsisigawan. mgkakaharap lang naman. wala tuloy ako matinong tulog. u know guys that i always go to bed aroun 3am. hirap akong matulog. and around 4 or 5am tulog na tulog na ko.and by 7am ngsisismula na silang mag-ingay. who will not got irritated naman di ba? isang isa nalang talaga. napipikon na ko. am not that bad pa. :p

DUTY. wala akong matinong duty this sem. xit talaga. and worst is extended pa ang duty namen until Oct. 26. so kelan pa ko magbakasyon non? hey hey it's not ok with me no! xit. 2mos. na ko hindi umuuwi sa batangas. i really miss my family.. :(

MY CP AND GLOBE. fuck my n95! and my globe sim. bakit wala xa signal everytime na asa dorm ako. when i inserted smart sim naman full signa. what's happening! and one day pa nawalan ng signal un fone ko.sa kahit anong fone gamitin ko wala talagang signal. i don't know wha't is wrong. ako ba un me topak? haha...:p

FINALS. this is the time which every one got toxic. ayoko sa lahat natotoxic. but i have no choice. am a lazy woman!admitted! :p nakakaasar ang clearance and finance. ang haba haba ng pila. still don't have permit for finals. grrr.. one thing i used the money.huhuhu..where am gonna get it???? bad!

TALKSHIT. hate people who don't have one word. hate them much. u know who u are guys...

FINALLY....

HIM. i hate him so much! (S).. for bein so kind to me and to everyone. ayoko ng maxadong mabait. magalit ka naman minsan! :p

can't wait for friday..:p

nakakatamad..

2008-10-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

nakakatamad... past 1am na gising na gising pa ko. why? kasi naman from 5pm-9pm tulog ako. nagising lang ako sa mga taong maiingay dito sa dorm. kainis talaga. amp... then can't sleep now. still have class tom at 8am. wtf!..:p

i wanna read advance for my finals. yet. natatamad ako. . i just read one topic then closed my book na...

i wanna clean my closet. but natatamad ako..

wala akong gana. body malaise. amp. still have colds. for 5 days. ang beggar ko na sa tissue.. :0

super bored na ko dito sa dorm. i don't know what to do. ang aga pa mgclosed. 9. 30pm di na pwede lumabas. xit talaga..what am supposed to to at this time? hindi ako tinatamaan ng antok. huhu

ok. am gonna end this nonsense blog.. hate hate hate it!

it's not really cute..:(

im sick...

2008-10-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

im sick. im not feeling well. i need a hug from my mom. i terribly miss my mom. it's been a month since last kami ngkita..:( i hate my runny nose. im gonna die! (arte).. i have a duty pa at ICU and worst is DON pa ko na assigned sa isolation room. sa pneumonia. wtf! i have colds pa naman. can't take it. today, nakaubos na ko ng 2roll ng tissue. hindi na naubos un sipon ko... am so badtrip pa kanina sa hospital. i know she's my patient, but un nurse. na hindi ko naman CI. ako pa un pinag NGT. ok lang naman. ang prob ko lang kasi tumutulo un sipon ko while doing the procedure. di ba dyahe. kakahiya. singhot ako ng singhot. hays...:) so crazy!...

siguro i got this freakin colds non last tuesday. non gumimik kami. eto napapala ng gala ng gala. im so bad. hay.. i hate this feelin! so much!... i need a CBR.. but i still have finals tom. sa pre-board ko. hays... nawiwindang na ko. hate it! di na ko natutuwa...:(

doll house..:)

2008-10-01T07:50:00.000-07:00

last night we hang out again at bureau makati. since walang pasok today pwedeng pwedeng gumimik..:) nice josh for picking up us in dorm. nice deni for the treat. i told you guys we live to part..:) life has to move on.. heheh.. kahit weekdays, wlang sinasanto. basta gimik. at basta libre. :) nice paw! ehhehe.. ate you got it. i told yah..

[with ate ricz@bureau]

[with best paw@bureau]

it's the best gimik ever. girl's night out. kahit ksama sila josh and deni. sila ang aming BIG boss. hehe tuesday night. walang sinasanto. hehe doll house at bureau.parang un time ng bigfish lang
hehehe.. sarap gumimik ng wlang kasamang bf for paw and ate. and for me? ok na ko. solve na basta kasama si baby. nice deni! bitter si josh. haha.. kawawa naman xa kami un natulog sa bed nia after ng gimik. xa nakatayo lang. nghihintay ng 6am. haha nice josh! love your house.:)

[with deni]

[nice josh!:)]

yeah men!

2008-10-01T07:15:00.000-07:00

hey guys. i think napapagiwanan na ang blog ko. it's been a while ng last ako ngpost here..:)

welcome october..

the highlights of my september is PARTY! gimik anywhere.:P

ok. 3 consecutive sat nights na ko gumigimik sa white ave. god's sake. nakakasawa rin naman DON. hehehe.. pero enjoy pa rin kasi i've been with my old friends. it's been two years kaming hindi rin nagkakita kita. at napakasaya.. it feels good talaga..:) ang daming bago sa kanila. at si shane me bf na! ang henyo ng barkada. hahaha nice shane!

[nice shane. you got a bf! woot.:')]

[it shows how happy i am to be with them]
ruth and ate ricz

sayang si chi lang un wala.un iba din pala wala. hehe natuwa talaga ako kay shane. finally he have a bf na. hahaha and this last sat. kami nila em.gumimik sa white av. together with ate ricz again.. :) am so happy bein with them. i treasured them much. love love men!

punchline..:)

2008-09-24T10:39:00.001-07:00

para kay kleng.. para kay jeric..:)

at para sa lahat ng corny jan kagaya ko. haha

hindi tayo tao..hindi tayo hayop.BAGAY tayo.BAGAY tlga tayo.

Ako ay isang exam.kaya sagutin mo na ako...

Telescope ka ba? Nkikita ko kase ang mga bituin sa mga mata mo!

Pag nagbalikan tayo, magkakadiabetes na ko kase love is sweeter the second time around.

Nasan ka ba? Mukhang nabulag na ata ako sa pag-ibig.

Pwede na kitang gawing juice for you're the apple of my eye.

Alarm clock kba? Ginigising mo lage ang natutulog kong puso.

Ndi kba napapagod? Kase you've been running in my mind all day

Alam mo bang scientist ako? At ikaw ang Lab ko!!!

Switch kba? Cause everytime I see you... you turn me on!!

Alien kba? coz on planet earth there's nothing else like you!

Naniniwala kba sa love at first sight? O kailangan dumaan ako ulet?

Para kang pustiso, I can?t smile w/o you!!

Ang buhay ko parang seesaw, Down ako pag wala ka!!

May modem kba? Kase you are always connected to my heart eh.

Do you have a map? I'm kinda lost in your eyes.

Maging Cactus ka man? handa akong masaktan? mayakap ka lang?

Anong height mo? Pano ka nagkasya sa Puso ko?

Pinaglihi kba sa keyboard? Type kase kita eh.

Ice kba? Kase Crush kita eh.

May nawawala ba sa yo? Kase you complete me.

Feeling ko ang taas taas mo? for I can't get over you.

Nababasa mo ba ung nakasulat? Your name is written all over my face.

Tawagin mo na ung mayor and we?ll paint the town red.

Minamalat na naman ang puso ko..paano kasi, laging sinisigaw ang pangalan mo..

Ikaw ba may-ari ng Crayola?? ikaw kasi nagbibigay ng kulay sa buhay ko..

Uy picture tayo!! para ma-develop tayo!!

Kung ikaw ay bola at ako ang player, mashushoot ba kita?? hinde, para lagi kita mamimiss..

Centrum ka ba?? kasi you make my life complete!!

Miss pwede ba kita maging driver?? para ikaw na magpapatakbo ng buhay ko..

I'm a bee..can you be my honey??

Nakakatakot diba ang multo?? pero mas nakakatakot kapag nawala ka sa buhay ko..

Mahilig ka ba sa asukal?? ang tamis kasi ng mga ngiti mo..

I hate to say this but... You are like my underwear?coz i can't last a day without you!!

Ibibili kita ng salbabida?kasi malulunod ka sa pagmamahal ko..

Pwede ba kitang maging sidecar?? single kasi ako eh..

May kilala ka bang gumagawa ng relo?? may sira ata relo ko.. pag ikaw kasi kasama ko, humihinto ang oras ko..

Am i a bad shooter?? coz i keep on missing you..

Mabilis ka siguro sa mga puzzle noh?? kasi kakasimula pa lang ng araw ko, pero nabuo mo na agad..

Bangin ka ba?? nahuhulog kasi ako sa'yo..

May butas ba puso mo?? kasi natrap na ako sa loob, can't find my way out!!

Sana "T" na lang ako...para i'm always right next to "U"

Minamalat na nmn puso ko, kakasigaw ng panglan mo

Nasan ka kagabi? Bkt wala ka sa panaginip ko?

Grabe nakakatawa yung mga pick-up lines noh?? hahaha! May alam ka pa
bang iba?? Wala na akong maisip eh.. coz all i ever think of is you..

:)))) hihihi.. ang corny!lavet!

nawiwili..:)

2008-09-23T23:00:00.000-07:00

[me bein a loner]

:))

last last sat. gumimik na kami and this last sat gumimik ulet. nawiwili ka tina. haha.. anyways, libre lang naman kasi ni angie kasi kumikback ang bata. haha.. and inlove xa ke kagawad ..(corny).. pero natutuwa ako sa kanilang dalwa.. they belong! haha.. hmmm. angie want to have a bf na since her last relationship was not good! haha.. ako nga eh 9 mos. ng single. and still not finding the right guy. haha...im not in a hurry.. pero most of my gurls have partners when we went out to a party. kamusta naman ako loner? haha.. i don't need a bf, i just need a friend who will stand up for me no matter what..:)) being wit friends and sharing thoughts and their wildest sex life made me laugh! what if pag ako na yung ngkwento?? haha... just bein ELMO here.. let's go to the party last sat.. :))

[cha, angie, me paw, jays nd cindy]
@white ave. un line parang pila lang sa NFA rice. haha

i have fun.. though i don't have a partner. haha i got drunk (lil bit). uminom muna kasi kami sa pier1 before kami pumunta ng white ave. and then party ever! i met a guy. hmm.. he's cute yeah.. definitely. we talked until 5am. he's a nice guy. :)) i don't know if i like him. it's just like he's not like D..:)) sabi ni paw much better daw kay D. but still my heart is longing on him. haha..

why you..???

2008-09-23T06:38:00.000-07:00

1. You are the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last thing i think about when i fall asleep..

2. Just thinking about you puts the biggest smile on my face and my heart beats faster and faster...

3. Every love song i listen to, i think of you..

4. I re-read all your letters to me over and over again...

5. When we are together, i never want the moment to end, i want it to last forever and ever..

6. Whenever i am with you or look at you, i am blind all i can see is you..

7. I am on cloud nine wen u hug me and just the way you smell..

8. Just by hearing your voice by calling me baby, i get butterflies on my stomach and can't help but smile..

9. I miss you already even before you leave..

10. I would do anything in the world for you since you came to my life and be my world and everything...

dealing with the best..:/

2008-09-22T09:26:00.000-07:00

hey hey im so happy! :]
can't sleep for many reasons..

im sleepy yet i don't want to sleep.
im chatting with my new friend. and it's cool! haha
im teasing him with his friend..
i need to read 3chapters in surgery for my exam tomorrow..
i want to watch greys..
i want to surf and surf ! haha

and the best is D and i chat in fb a while ago..as in hahah
i dunno pano ngyari. haha. can't explain this feeling.basta marami na kong alam bout him. and so hapi kasi he treated me na as his friend.. natutuwa lang ako kasi it's been month ata na hindi kami ngkasusap.. and miss having a good conversation with him..

i have a good good night!!! tina is love! hahah

now.. im dealing with the best. i'll behave na promise..

better off..

2008-09-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

finally C open up with me..

i heard he's sad today.. I'm about to sleep na when someone texted me. It's him! just a quote. then i text him..

me:are you sad?
C:hmmm not really..
me: wanna share something?
C:it's about B(my so called friend)
me:what about her?
C:im falling inlove with her..

geez! eto na ang katotohanan. sa kanya na ng galing. how shud i react.. i don't know if ill be sad or what? all i know is my heart beats fast! xet. hahaha do i need to text him pa? shud i give him the right advise?what's wrong with me? diba?i shud help him.

me:so what's the prob with that?
C:we all know that she have a bf right?

aun.. i forgot to tell you guys, B have a bf already! hey help. what shud i say???

me:yeah she had. did she know that you love her?
C:yeah she knows.
me:aun naman pala eh..
C:hndi ko alam dapat gawin eh.
me:i don't know what the right things to say.complicated kasi.
C:yup. hindi naman ako ngmamadali. i respect their relationship naman.

so C is getting emo right now! haha..and me am just being emotera too..

me:maybe it's not the right time for you and her. ur willing to wait right?
C:oo. pero alam ko tama naman tong ginagawa ko.
me:it's up to you.if you fight or give up.
C:fight fight fight! go for the gold xempre.
me:aun nama pala eh go na! hehe

i hate this kind of situation.. hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin matantya si C kung ano ba talaga xa for me. am affected? i think i am. i wont react like this if im not. right?i shud be happy for him na lang. giving advise to the one you like about the girl he likes is do difficult.lalo na kapag so called friend mo un rival mo. di ba?im not against with them. ayoko lang talaga napapasok sa gantong situation kasi mahirap,stop it tina! it won't help. :) if they read this they gonna kill me. all i want is share.. im SAD..

"better not mind the thing that depresses you, cause it only makes you weak inside and out."

i should stop wanting..

2008-09-17T15:08:00.000-07:00

fresh from my 10pm-6am duty.(ER)..feeling toxic!:P

im not sleepy!! dunno why??!!still kicking at this time. yeahboy..

anyway i just wanna share something that really confused me this past few days.there's a guy (let us call him "C") that i met recently. hmmm. he's not cute but a certified hottie in town.(kapal nia..) he keep on texting me,sending jokes..he know's i love jokes. yes! he's kind, i think..:p should i say i wish. hahaha.. im having a goo d conversation with him everyday but later on i found out that one of my so called friends was close to him.i was shocked! really!...i don't know how should i react. am so affected? im not! uber..the trouble in my mind is that there something fishy going on between them. the hell i care? hahaha. hey im not jealous or what. i just don't want that i'll be close to the guy that my friend really likes..it's kinda awkward right? she knows that were texting. im shy to her, if i knew it before i won't text that guy talaga. ayoko ng ganon! :p then the other night i deleted his number. i told myself that i wil never ever text him again. for the peace of mind! haha.. then i received a quote from unknown number, then i asked who he was. then he replied, "it's C, binura mo na ba ko?".. oh f*uck! bakit ngtext na naman xa. and bakit nreply ko pa. badtrip no. then i just said that i changed fone and his number was my other fone. hindi nakasave sa sim. ok. nkalusot. haha hindi na kami gano ngetetext lately kasi ayoko na talaga mainvolved sa kanya and sa kanila. im not bitter ha, ayoko lang may masabi un so called friend ko kasi boylet nga daw nia un. :p.. hay.. nawiwindang ako. ngiinarte lang ako dito. topak kasi! yaan nio na nga lang. i just want to share lang naman..:)... i'll just take a sleep n nga lang.. for this day sana di na xa magtext..hays... i deleted again his number but i don't memorize it huh! hahah..:)

"it's not what you wear...
it's how you take it off.."

expensive

2008-09-14T11:21:00.000-07:00

after the party last night, ymel again invited me to come at the mega mall with kleng..i wake up around 2pm and haven't eaten my lunch! wtf! i took a bath for 10mins. then dressed up and went there. geez! starving!:) kleng told me that they already ordered me a food at maxx.so thoughtful! .but guess what! they ordered a so expensive food. napakathoughtful talaga. and im the one whose gonna pay it. kala ko pa naman libre ng dalawang bruha! im so beggar nga eh! hahahaha

[at maxx.with kleng and ymel. my expensive luch!]

hmmm. pinagod lang naman kami ni ate ymel humanap ng freakin concealer niya! haha.. imagine mgkasama lang kami gumimik last night then today mgkasama na naman kami. i miss these two girls.. we always belong. haha.. ate kapag sumuweldo ka na treat mo kami ni kleng wag sa mcdo! hahaha... and kleng u need to treat me also. parang biglang nabaliktad. my utang pa ko sayo. haha..anyways. ilove goin out with these two beyatch. haha dami kasi kwento. hey kleng the orgy!lol.. and esp. jeric.. lavet! hahaha hmmm.. im gonna sleep na talaga..:) goodluck for my 7am class.. tiktak!

P.S. im savig all my love for you...

C..

2008-09-14T09:47:00.000-07:00

hey fellow bloggers.. I'm goin to make it short coz im really sleepy na.(always..) I'm so excited lang talaga to post a new entry here. :)

i have a great weekend with my beloved friends.. hmm.. i miss master (YMEL).. it's been a month since we went out. so last sat night we went out to a party (white ave).. thanks to dj santy. whom we never really know.. thanks for free entrance and for not waiting long outside.. super haba kasi ng pila. i think those people who are in the GL. iba lang talaga ang "karisma" namen..hahaha...

[with ate ymel @white ave]

then there's a guy who really looks like "kris lawrence".. shet! hahaha.. he keeps on staring our group may be he wants to make friends with us. LOL...hmm.ok.. were friendly naman eh. until he approach us. geez! he's not kris lawrence! hahaha he was cool.. kengkoy rin. love his moves. yeah he dance well.. also sean his other friend so nice. and guess what guys what a small world! kasi barkada nila un "ex-bf ni twin".. were both shock! he thought pa I'm kurt's ex. he's bad! hahaha....

[jd(kris lawrence version), me, ymel and sean]
super exhausted @mcdo..

meeting new friends is not bad..and the world is very small. i'll find you rin. haha..

Go on Bitch!

GIG-licious..

2008-09-07T09:13:00.000-07:00

thea and I watched the concert of boys like girls yesterday at G4. super late na nga kami. geez. 3 songs to go before it will end. haha.. daming tao! fantics? haha.. yeah im one of those. hey im not punk or watso ever. im just a plain tina who loves their music.. really! for about a year i was so addicted to their songs..it must be love.. haha especially when im so EMOTERA i'll just listen to their songs until i feel relieved again. haha.. jet doesn't like their songs but i love them so much... i appreciate it very well.. i told myself that no matter what happened im gonna see them performing.. once in a lifetime! i beg thea to come with me. she doesn't know what is boys like girls. she's always saying boys are girls. hahah it amde me laugh hard.. so at the event she was just amazed for the performanced of the band and she said "now i know, why you like them".. so she belong now. haha...i don't have a group pic with them kasi naman were super late na and the security eh mega higpit. amp.:0 here's the side view pics.

[the side views of boys like girls..:p]

after we watche it super exhausted. LOL. time for us to chill. but we don't know where. we eat first at yellow cab. then we decided to have a window shopping at G5 then more pictures. haha. camwhore!haha..[me and thea after the concert]

[i don't know where to go.:p]

finally we decided to drink na lang in timog. yeah i will drink. for thea i will. haha.. then when we arrived at timog troy invited us to watch their gig at center arts. oopps. do i belong? haha. yeah i know a bit songs of rockers but not that much. haha since were only two and it will be so boring if we gonna drink by me and thea we agreed to watch their gig nlng since it was his brother gig nama. sayang wala si pam. i want to see her pa naman mgheadbang. haha. ok. prophecy. got it! haha

[me and thea with the prophecy]
[oops. hindi nakakiss saken si ej. haha]

this day is for music.. no one won't believed that i appreciate their music. it's just i love the music. it's my life. almost my soul.. yeah.. headbang! hahaha..

"Music is my way to escape the ABUSE."

PERIOD..:c

2008-09-02T07:27:00.000-07:00

im SAD. extremely sad.. tears fall while doin' this.
it's hurt so much. i know im not in the right place to react like this.
WHY????

im NOT HIS GIRL..
he's TAKEN..
he's IGNORING me..
snob
well- off
anti-social
Not so really kind?
we just know each other tru fs and fb
we just only have a conversation in chat room
he isthe reason why i owned a BLOG.
he is the first entry in this blog
he is the first thing i think before and after i sleep
he is my everyday stories to my friends
he is my INSPIRATION
he is the one i've been looking for
he is my IDEAL GUY
he is the resemblance of my FREAKIN' EX-bf
he is the SKATER BOY
his weird thoughts
his ART
his HAIR..
his skate shoes
his elite friends
and HIS GIRL..

there's a THOUSANDS REASONS why i SHOULD NOT LIKE HIM even from the START.. but i did.. i almost LOVE HIM..i wasn't supposed to fall in love, BUT I DID.. the situation drives me crazy. I REALLY WANNA BE HIS LADY.. (damaged).. i look so pathetic now. fine! don't worry guys this is the LAST.. swear!.. im not BITTER.. i should not. feelingera lang ako! :) im SORRY DON.. sorry for loving you DEEPLY.. my heart is shattered.. hope ur goin to fix it sooner.. im not expecting.. i'll be here for you. EVER!..

much LOVE.
TINA. DRAMA QUEEN.

can't wait...

2008-08-30T22:07:00.000-07:00

im bum again. super bum..
absent again in my theology and review class. i woke up late..
i really hate my sundays class.. it sucks. it should be my rest day.
7days in school kills me! i never completed a perfect attendance for a week..haha..im so lazy goin at school. i preffered a one week duty than having class at school.. :D

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i don't know what im supposed to do today.. i'll be in suicide if i'll stay here in dorm. haha.. i wanna go out.but whose gonna go with me? paw is still sleeping.. tired from her last night gimik. and me i preffered to stay here last night. wala sa mood! haha it's past 1pm and yet i haven't eat my breakfast and lunch. im starving so much. i don't want to go out and buy some foods. it's too hot outside..i'll just wait paw to wake up. hays... i'll just eat my chocolates...:p

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this afternoon i'll be goin to kit's condo. im goin to get the dress. im so excited for my next gimik this wednesday. but it is tentative. depends on my mood. haha..it's been two years since i went to her condo. ang lapit lapit lang naman. were just too busy. haha.. my future dent here i come.haha

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last night i was planning about my sem break.. i should go somewhere. and it will be
LA UNION. can't wait to surf! haha.. i wanna learn it.. i tried water skiing but i guess surfing is more thrilling. i wanna dance with the waves eventhough i don't know how to swim. wtf!.. haha basta can't wait for this.. :)

WELCOME BER MONTH.. MORE BEER TO COME! HAHAHA

shut up!

2008-08-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

they are so called "mean gurls" in the school.. they looks sophisticated but laugh hard even in the corniest jokes.. i belong in this so called mean gurls. yeah. i love my gurls so much. we are only 3 in the group. we love to hang out. we love jokes. i have been with them one year ago. paw is my so called BEST. and ciny she was my batchmate in hs. . we get along and have the same trip. that's why we booommm! hahaha.. now i can't figure out why there were so rumors about us. like were so "maarte, pasosyal, easy to get, flirt, gold digger," and etc. im so pissed off about this. these stuff aren't true. for those people who doesn't know us they gonna believed in this. my point is why they have to this on us. we don't care their lives. in the first place we don't know them.. we just live in our own way. naiinggit ba sila? inngit ba sila on how we act? on how we laugh? they were paranoid!what's wrong with us ba? we don't need to please them. we did not hurt someone.. we did not do something bad to them.. so would you mind your own life?..:) it's not cute.. wondering why there so many people bitter on us while we feel so much better! :)

[tina,cindy,paw]

"insecurity is the reason why backfighters were born. they live like a winner, but ends up as loser".. ..good luck baby.. don't be so jealous. you might got sick. it's incurable. haha

definitely,maybe

2008-08-26T08:14:00.000-07:00

just DONe watching a movie. definitely maybe which kleng lent me this morning. okay. im on a movie marathon.im so confused if we will have a duty tomorrow.i bet we have but my group mates said that we don't have. wtf! okay i'll just go to the province tomorrow morning..:) BAHALA NA..!

i'm gonna make it short..anyways it's about the guy we saw in starbucks last saturday night.. uhmm. he's handsome and hot. definitely yes!.. you will see later. ayt..? he is sitting the next table from us.i keep on staring him. he's so cute reading his books. i don't know if he absorbed what he read because the crowd was so noisy.geez. he's smoking that's why he sat outside. uhm...while i keep on staring him, paw took a stolen shot of him. am so happy. haha we keep on "pacute" on him but he never bothered to take a look. he kept on reading. damn!... i don't even know his name.. okay times up for him..

hey. i DON't know if am gonna tell you this guys. because i told before that i already gave up. but hey i saw his pic a while ago. he's so cute with his skate board. i hate this feeling again. am gonna stop it. right sushi.. so you can tell me that i have move on. lolz.

I'm gonna stalk and stare you FOREVER..:)

bum and beggar..:)

2008-08-25T23:03:00.000-07:00

midterms is over..:)
and yet im still beggar.. hindi na ko natutuwa sa ngyayari saken. :p
let me update you for what happend last week..

Monday. we don't have class because it was ninoy's day.. geez.. i went to province.. i reviewed my notes so that no one will bother me.. hahaha

Tuesday. Dad back to US. i never said bye. yup. i still have "tampo" pa to him. but i can't do anything.still he's my dad. i text him the next day and say sori for what ive done. i will not be a bad daughter na.. (i bet)..

Wednesday. it's a bum and beggar day starts. haha.. bum day because we don't have class.we stayed in dorm for the whole day.. and that night beggar day started. why? it's because of my luxuries. haha paw it's all because of you. hahaha.. how we gonna pay her? hahaha it's 8k. haha

Thursday.midterms day.. it's just like a surprise quiz. because i never reviewed well my notes. i don't even read any topics in my book. wtf. im gonna failed. God don't let it be. ahaha

Friday.this is the bummest day! hahaha me ganon ba? as in ngmukmok lang sa dorm. haha though how much paw and i want to chill after exams it can't be.kasi nga beggar kami. haha

Saturday.i really wanna go out. chil. kasi di na talaga ako natutuwa. haha and it happened! haha.. gimik at ascend with gail and his friends. i really miss gail. after 4years now lang ulit kami ngkita. love love! then drop by at embassy.. it was the best. because my long lost crushc.(josef habit) was there. damn! hottie pa rin. hahaha

[me and gail]

Sunday. i landed to the city of Pampanga. it's my first time there. haha.. paw invited me to their house. i felt that i don't belong. because i don't even know any kapampangan words. they were like koreans while talking kapampangan. also like bees in my ears. hahah peace out best..:)

Monday.paw and i went to analyn's house.she's so nice. not just because she gave me dress it's because she's really generous. it's my first time to meet her. :) and the best line i ever heard there is "banat neh!" by rav. hahaha ang beggar..:p

tatsi

2008-08-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

i miss him..:c

hay.. i don't know why.. since last week na nakita ko xa i started to miss him na. it must be crazy.. im still missing him pala. i bet nakamove on na ko yet di pa pala. im so sicked with you TATSI...

[my favorite picture of tatsi.sleepy head too..!]

moved on..sushi..:)

love the word sushi for now.. haha..:)

"fighting is over"

2008-08-18T23:02:00.000-07:00

i was so mean...
admitted..and obviously..:p

i don't want this blog will be full of bad emotions and hatred..
i don't want hatred lived in my heart..:)
does it sounds good???
i love them but i'm a rebellious child..suck! haha

this week is for my exams.. im gonna save my time for studying.
since we don't have class tomorrow im planning to study tonight
until morning since i sleep for 5hours today. harhar..

anyways.. leee meee share..something. a bit..

my stat in facebook is "stealing a heart.."
hahaha
but i don't know whose heart it is.
it's not DON's heart.. damn. it's over..
im moving on sushi gurl.. believed it or not. haha

" I know you'll meet someone better
But would you still think of me
If he can't hold you like I did
Would you run back to me
Yes I know this pain shall pass
Gave all this time
Still we couldn't last.."

this will be worst feeling...
MOVING FORWARD..
ON YOUR BENDED KNEES..
wtf!:D

ampness

2008-08-15T00:01:00.000-07:00

im nearly to death..i can feel it.. :c

i went to province 2 days ago.. im not so aware that we have a family problem and accompanied by financial problem.. so here it goes.. almost our savings were gone. i don't know were did my mom put it. so i just have to believed on her stories to stop the argument. since my dad didn't got much angry with her. i don't know why.. i almost spent my whole allowance in nonsense things. and now regret so much.. dad knows that i have still my allowance for the whole school year. but it almost gone.i spent it on my "luho".. im too shophaholic. party every now and then. and my uncle borrowed 40k from me. and now im cramming where will i get my tuition fee for next week exams.. im gonna die!!!

my brother was suspended for 5days. he brought cigarette in their school. damn! he was caught by the sister. my dad got so angry and he almost kill my brother. i have nothing to do but to stop him and cry.. kelan ba magtitino ang kapatid ko???...

while having our dinner my brother asked me who is my rumor bf.. i can't utter any words, just tears flow on my eyes.. im so damn sensitive. i walked out and locked my room. i didn't finished my food. i cried so much.. im not mad with my brother. i just hate that no one believes on me especially in my family. how many times i should say that i don't have any boyfriend?why they can't believed on me. naiinis na talaga ako!!!!.. fuck that chismosa! hays...

and now.. i don't know what to do.. i just pull the syringe. and inject it to myself.. ..
see you on the crossroads..:c

BIGFISH..

2008-08-09T20:24:00.000-07:00

08-08-08 IS LOVED..:)

THE BIG EVENT IS DONE.. WE LIVE TO PARTY!.. ITS AN AWESOME NIGHT..
EVERYONE THERE IS BELONG. WE ALMOST BELONG. HAHA ITS THE BEST PARTY EVER.. MEETING NEW FRIENDS IS NOT BAD. JUST KEEP ON SMILING BABY. HAHA.. THANKS TO MS. JACKIE AND HER FRIENDS.. SOO SOO COOL. :)

PAW AND I WAS SO THANKFUL BECAUSE WE ATTENDED THIS EVENT THOUGH THERE SO MANY HINDRANCES. HAHA THROUGH THICK AND THIN.. WE ALWAYS BELONG.. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE UP COMING EVENTS..

UNFORGETTABLE DATE...
888..

u gave me the reasons..

2008-08-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

i have a bad morning..
i got awake tru my dad's call. past 9am. ok. i was absent again i my review class.. sarapa matulog.!

ok here it goes. dad asking how i am coz i have a fever and colds last night. they just done attending mass in antipolo which is very far far away from batangas. haha so they were asking too when ill come back home. i said i don't know yet. so it's ok na. then i check my smart cp and noticed that it was lowbatt. i charged it and open it then saw my mom's miscall. and she have a message on me. she was asking who is the guy i was dating, who also lives in our town and im the one pa raw paying bills when we go out! the nerve.. haha that idiot! sino ang chismosang un? the question that entered in my mind first. so i asked mom who told them that story. and i don't have anyone i dated in our town. ang tagal tagal pa nia mgreply.. then she told me that she gonna told me who's that person when i got back home. eh sabi ngyon n nia sabihin saken. then she said it was my lola. wtf! hay i don't know how should i react..

the reasons...
that lola is my dad's mom.
from the start she doesn't like my mom.
she always made story about my mom.
she tolerated dad when he have a mistress. damn
she allowed that mistress to live in their house.
so wat she was intention?
she was so insensitive for my mom's feelings.

i should not tell these here.
but she gave me reasons to hate her much!

disaster

2008-08-02T00:24:00.000-07:00

this past few days i was really confused..
confused on him. confused in everything..

i got too toxic in my last rotation. (sigh).. she's very perfectionist. damn!

i got easily irritated to everyone.. maybe my monthly period is coming.

i got disappointed in myself for the reason that i failed in my last rotation.

i end up thinking giving up in my course..

i was so confused with my mom. i don't know if i have to say why because it really confidential.family matters..:(

i don't know how should i react in tinky's comment.. "iloveyou too". for i was joking in my comment to him,"iloveyou"..

i became apathetic lately with Don. but when i got to know that he was sick i worried a lot.

i started to hurt when i begin to care bout him.

im so depressed in my prelims exam..

i almost spend half of my allowance in my whole school year! damn!

i felt nothing last night.

"everything turns to useless.
disaster occurs..livi'n in chaos.."

freak..

2008-07-24T05:16:00.000-07:00

1st day of duty in NICU.

late.. yeah were late.. kasi si lyndol ang tagal tagal. :)

papasok pa lang sa hospital nakasalubong namen un isang CI. damn. ngalit xa kasi one student hindi pa fix ung hair nia. ang lakas ng boses ni ma'am. then she noticed one of my grupmate though nkapony xa magulo pa rin. her fringe sucks! hahaha. ok. i passed by her. para di nia ako manoticed kasi im guilty. magulo rin un buhok ko and still my hair color. eventhough hindi xa kagad manonoticed kasi kelangan pa niang titigan. eh 2 steps closer lang xa saken. haha so lumayo talaga ako sa knya. iniwan ko si lyndol. late kami 15mins. hindi kami kagad pinapasok sa loOb ng NICU. i guess pauwiin n nia kaming tatlo. hay.. pero by batch pala yun.thanks God. swerte pa din. haha

wala ako sa mood magduty.. why?
i hate 6am-2pm rotation.insomniac ako.
i hate that hospital. ayoko talaga DON. hahaha

after duty..natulog kagad ako. hay.. im really tired.. hate this one.

and the one got me freak is still that girl. hay ewan ko. xa talaga un reaon y i can't have him. im so bad..
and this freaking ulan. bagyo ba to? kumikidlat at kumukulog pa. wtf!
hate hate this day!:(

mOnday

2008-07-21T02:00:00.000-07:00

what a monday..:)
ok.ok. i sleep for 4hours last night. after reading 1chapter in my MS exam i really felt tired and sleepy..i have to sleep and be prepared for my 7am exam.. this morning i was on time in my class thought it was really hard to wake up at eary in the morning.. just to found out that our exam was cancelled an it will be tom. wtf! i don't know how ill react on this. should i be happy or not. happy for the reason that i still have time to read,not happy because i really want it to be over!..

before the proper class starts, our Prof. noticed paw's hair because it was dyed. she told paw that she need to do an incident report and address it to the assisstant DEAN before she accept paw and give her exam. so ok..paw is doing a letter na..i was seated near the isle. suddeny while my Prof. walking in the isle she noticed my hair. amp. "bakit mapula rin yang kulay ng buhok mo?hindi ko yan napansin sa malayo ha.gumawa ka rin ng incident report.". wtf! i just smiled to paw. and said tru thick and thin we belong. hahahaha because she's the one who insisted me to color my hair. hahaha..

so we made a letter and send it to the Assisstant DEAN. Luckily he was absent. our coor countersigned the letter. finally we accepted in our MS class. i just realized that im not so lucky this morning. if she did not walk in middle isle she won't noticed my hair. damn. ok ma'am ill promised that ill be colored it to black tomorrow. hahaha

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and this afternoon class. i really felt lazy to go to school. my minor subjetcs sucks! err. if paw did not wake me up i wont go to school. hahah thanks to paw. it's our hands on exam in com app pala. di ba? it really sucks. hahaha anyways i have a speakcon this 3pm. by batch. im on the first batch and we have to debate on some topics.it will be our prelim exam. i think i excel in that matter. and at the end of the deabte i was called a "most talkative in the class" hahaha.. i don't know why i talk a lot. it just because i want my opinion to be raise up. hahaha.. ok. have to study na ulit. :)

pissed off

2008-07-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

im not into blog mood these past few days.. im sad. i dont want my whole entry here were all EMO. lol.:/0

ok. ill update you guys..:)

1. i have my 2weeks duty in SLH. this will be the last week..

2. i was absent for two weeks in my minor class..:( too bad..

3. i was caught chatting with my seatmate and my prof. got mad on me.

4. my lola have apendicitis. it made me sad because i cant visit her in the province.

5. i was absent 4days in my review class. this is the worst.

6. i got my hair dye though i know its not allowed in school.

7. not having a massage for this month. maybe this coming weekend.

8. i haven't received yet a simple thank you from DON. he just celebrated his 20th last july 12. (i never post any entry bout his bday)

9. im so pissed off! (bec. of that girl. i wanna KILL her!)

10. lastly. im super windang this past few days. dahil don!

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im sad.. EMOtera lang. :)

blah

2008-07-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

toxic in blog layout. haha

i promised im gonna stick in this layout.:)

kleng be proud to me i made it by myself. haha but i still need ur help for the comment box. haha

my 2weeks rotation in DR ended. hays. it sucks. just only 2 cases. bakit wala ng nanganak don at our shift? malas! and u know hate those SN na nkakasabay namen DON. feeling! bitter ba ko? haha..:) love the madocs. they were nice..:)and xempre me crush ako DON. :)

karma..:(

i don't know if it's karma. remember? i bought a new fone last tuesday without the permission of my mom. then my mom told me yesterday that her fone was lost! damn. she just put it daw in the tabel near our garage then he go inside after 10mins her fone is already not there..she had the habit placing that fone in the table before but it never lost then out of the blue biglang nawala! wtf!:( fuck that person who get my mom's fone! i told her im gonna give to her my fone na lang but i never told that i have a new fone.:)sori na mom..:p

hey hey.. DON is really really cute now! i saw her new pics. so inlove with him! his bday is getting nearer. i wanna be with him. how i wish..:( nasasad talaga ako everytime na makikita ko un pics nila ni kamille though they were complicated now. amfy! selos ako. i really want DON. obsessed na ko. amp:D

july..:)

2008-07-01T20:55:00.000-07:00

welcome july..:)

i don't know what's with the month of july..as far as i know our prelims is on the 2nd week of july.. wtf.:) haha

the 1st day of july is so so happy..:)
honey and I watched "made of honor". we agreed kasi before that it will be the next movie will goin to watch eventhough wanted is already showing. it will be the next movie will be watcn'. hmmm.. i enjoyed the movie.. :) i can't believed that there is a guy like Tom waitinhg Hanna for almost 10 years. he did love Hannah for 10 years..:) nice.and guess what for that 10 years they been together but not committed to each other. haha..:) when Hannah leaved Tom and their communication wasn't that good Tom felt really sad. and until Hannah came back and Tom was so excited for he wiill goin' to propose a marriage to her.sad to say Hannah is already engaged to someone. it killed Tom's heart.:( and the crazy thing is Hanna's made of honor is TOM! ahahaha... cutie cute.. first time a guy will be a made of honor. but it is the last resort Tom's have to steal Hannah from the groom..:) so next part is for you to watch it. hahaha..:)

so my motto now is "STEAL DON"..

so crazy. hahaha..:) honey and I next planned is to eat in ABE.. we must eat there. haha..:) thanks honey for making me happy all the times..:)

******

i got a new fone. i dont know if i should be happy or not.there's a guilt fnow feeling. my mom doesn't know that i buy a new fone.she's goin to kill me. hahaha..:) im too spoiled brat n ata.. hay i need to keep my savings. im goin to be beggar sooner and i need to ask dad another allowance but he already gave for the whole school year but July pa lang nagastos ko na lahat.almost! huhuhuuhu. i don't know what to do.. wtf..:(

thoughts..

2008-06-29T21:59:00.000-07:00

thoughts that kill my heart last night..

on bended knees - "please come back to me. i all guarantee i'll never let you go."

jet tina
bum certified
I wanna party
all good things come to an end-- PAL
full of regrets! damn!!..
i want a body massage...-- body mist..
i hate DON for ignoring me..
i wanna kill Kamille!
I want Dulay to me ny next bf..so crazy..:)
I will always love you Jet..
the music in FM sucks..! arggh! I'll stick in my ipod promise..
I wanna make love with Jake Cuenca.. LOL
I wanna know the owner of red eclipse I saw in Mendiola's parking lot.
I wanna escape..
I should start my diet.
I want to be HS student again..

It's not done.. i fall asleep with my pen and my notebook to my face.It's around 11pm. im so tired kasi. then i suddenly woke by 4:30am and I saw my laptop was still open. damn. i forget to shut down it. hay.. then i back to sleep again.. just woke by 12:30pm. i don't have class today. certified bum again here in dorm..:(

dyahe..:(

2008-06-29T05:45:00.000-07:00

church class at 7am then review class at 9am until 6pm..:(

no wonder.. i was late again in my church class. the first time, i was absent.. haha. it's really hard to wake up early at sunday.. its sunday but we still have classes. damn. no rest day. grabe na etech!..:( so i was excited again in my review class. ehem.. yeah its because dulay. just because i miss him. haha i miss his jokes. i don't like the one who lectured us yesterday,.. kinda bit boring. iba pa rin kapag si Dulay. LOL..

we decided to sit in front, very near to Dulay.. just because we want to see him closer. what if his only cute kapag malayo di ba. buti na yung sure. haha... then. im really attentive listening to his lecture. todo notes pa ko. haha .. he's a very good lecturer naman.. he's really cute talaga.. sabi nga ni Cindy pinagpapantasyahan ko na raw. ahhaha hell no! hes so cute lang talaga..geeezzz... he's so rich na kaya at the age of 23 he earned 20k/day.. wtf! hahaha.. so i like him n nga. i like his pocket. hahaha..damn.. i wanna be like him na din. haha but i dont want to be a lecturer. nakakaubos kaya ng laway. haha..:)

in his aftenoon discussion i really felt sleepy..by 4pm i fall asleep.. perhaps for about 10mins..di ko na napigilan. tinamad na rin ako mgnotes. hahaha.. then he announced in mic, "madam wag
mo akong tulugan".. nagising naman ako bigla..the crowd laughed. hay its so dyahe talaga.. i fall asleep in front of him.nakaahiya ka tina. tinulugan mo xa. haha. si cindy naman kasi pinbayaan nia lang ako matulog. hahaha.. hay dulay sori na ah..:)

it's complicated..

2008-06-28T04:42:00.000-07:00

i was checking Don's profile in facebook and i was shocked for what i saw. he just recently changed his status. it's complicated! woot.. i dunno why,. before it was in a relationship with... (i dont want to mention her name)... then now..haha. and the girl have a comment on him saying "balita ko break na daw tayo". wtf. hahah. that was on april 4, '08. super tagal na di ba? so what happened between them.. and hey hey hey.. i invited that girl because i want to see her profile buta she rejected it. damn. ahhaha it's her freedom naman eh.. fine.. whatever! ahahhaha..

so i keep on smiling now, wondering why it's complicated maybe they have LQ.. haha u know naman how much i like don. my very first blog here is about him. ayt? i found him so cool.. and resemblance of jet. hmpp. cuter than jet. hahha..

oh well DON. im just here for you. haha i wont forget ur message to me. it makes me kilig everytime. haha..:o thanks DON..well i hope you and her will be ok, im not that bad naman. hahahaha...

blah blah blah...

2008-06-27T07:36:00.000-07:00

it takes time to realize...:0

"If you just realize what I just realized, Then we'd be perfect for each other, And we'll never find another.Just realize what I just realized, We'd never have to wonder,If we missed out on each other now. "

finally it's weekend.. iM on the mood to do a blog everyday though some was non sense. haha. ive been addicted to blog now..dunno why.. maybe it's because i have nothing to do (im so bum in the dorm), but it much better if ill sleep after the duty right? but i prepared to write a blog before ill take a rest. haha (Addict)..:p

this past days i was so emo (emotera).. i just miss him. him..only him.. hes not mine anymore.. just for one day ive been closer to him. how i wish that day wont be ended. i love him but i cant do anything but cry everynight and wish tha one day he will come back. but i know that he's not mine anymore he's hers. and ill be moving on bit by bit again.. isnt it so sad?:'(

dunno why..

2008-06-26T07:04:00.000-07:00

1st day of rotation in ER-OSTON.. im so excited for the cases. LOL
it's my first day at the OSTON (pronounce it as bonggang bonggang oston, haha) ...
the place? no comment. haha.. u know naman when you heard the word "tondo".andon na lahat..not all people naman..:0 baka magunshot ako neto. haha

our area is LR-DR, 2-10pm shift.
super hot! amfy!....
uhm well the staff were aproachable..
well im gonna tell you the climax na lang..

toxic kung toxic..
why? because of my mask! damn...!
while oil bathing the baby my mask almost cover my eyes na. i almost cry na rin coz its hurting my eyes n nga. so the baby and i cried together. so sweet right? haha.. i felt guilty at the same time because i did not give my full care to the baby because my attention was on my damn mask! argggh! dyahe tuloy sa CI ko. haha..

i hope tomorrow it will be the best. more cases to come..:p

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

pAW'S bdAy..

yesterday was her bday..
we drink last night.. she have a duty (10pm-6am) but she did not attended it. damn! ahaha
shes goin to make up it. 3:1.. ahahha goodluck paw!
im not on the mood last night..if its not her bday i wont come..
i dunno y. maybe i have the thought na im going to see him.but not so lucky enough he's not there. im sad. yeah im sad..it should be ended.. until next time.. im tired..

not ordinary love

2008-06-25T05:50:00.000-07:00

"From the very first time that we kissed I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all ..From this day on, remember this: That you're the only one that I adore. Can we make this last forever?This can't be a dream'.Cause it feels so good to me.."

i meet him after a shattered heart from my ex.. one word that will describe to him is "frank".. why frank? hes just like a storm (bagyong frank)..haha he have a big impact on me on the day he came to my life. but he left me so easily.. he destroyed my life, so mess. he corrupted my mind. he left me more than a shattere heart.. i got more heart now.unlike the day jet and i broke up. but him. we just have 2 weeks but i was taken for granted. i miss him. i dunno y he left me. i need an answer from him.. i want to talk to him but seems he's not interested..:(

" i was not prepared again to fall inlove so deep.. but you came unexpectedly.."

i just got hurt again..

review..

2008-06-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

2nd day of review..
i told myself i wont be absent in my review clas..
eventhough im so lazy to wake up this morning i have to attend the class. but i was absent in my church class. it.s all because of paw! ahaha. we ate the left over yellow cab.that's our breakfast. so beggar. LOL..7am! amfy! haha... so i was so excited for the review.. starts at 9am until 6pm. we only have one hour break..lunch break! ahahaha..

so here it goes.. the lecturer..(Jobert Dulay R.N.)
so for those who knows him isn't he's cute? hahaha
i like him. i like the way he teaches us. and especially his silly jokes..
i never felt sleepy in his lecture. he's a good singer pa uh!..
but he's taken na. LOL. he's too young. 23 y.o.
oh well he might kill me if ever he read this blog..hahaha..
and guess what he's rich! :)
he asks someone to sing as an intermission number and he gave P500.00. my classmate sing in front of us.. damn. kapal ng mukha! haha. but in fairness she have a good voice naman.. what i mean pala is basta pera kakanta xa. but f i have a good voice ill sing rin! yeah mukha akong pera! ahahaha...

well.well.. i learned a lot from him. he's the best. haha..ill be excited seeing him tomorrow..im excited to learn too.. hay i miss mr. gapuz naman. 1st day he was our lecturer.the best rin xa. haha... hay hay.. feeling ko talaga i wont be lazy na goin to school.damn. haha..:)
untill next time..im goin to review again.read and read..:)

untitled..

2008-06-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

im here again.. updating what happened in my unpredictable life..:)

Monday and tuesday i have a class in school. NCM. amfy! its 7am so i have to wake up early. but i usually sleep around 2am so im so sleepy during my class.and guess what. i was absent in my afternoon class. hahaha..i felt soo soo lazy goin to school since my afternoon class is just a minor subject yet i have to attend that freakin' class. i swear i will not be absent next week. haha... :)

my ER rotation for the two weeks ended.. toxic? haha.. i talk a lot now since my former groupmate is with us na.. yehey! tina is no more sad in duty days..:) i don't like my ER rotation esp. if it is ortho because under this are the DM patients. super toxic the smell! amfy dumfy! yeah tina is so arte.. LOL. im wearing mask na nga but i can still smell that unpleasent odor.errr~!!
i was so excited for the cases. oh well lacerated wound again. haha. thanks for the intern and resident doctors there.. super nice.. and i found someone a cute doctor. just a lil bit. haha.. and im so surprised because those intern doctors there know my cousins since they were goin in the same school and batchmates too. popular? hahaha

the CLIMAX...:)

best is still alive! lol. haha he keeps me sending quotes.. oh well wala xa magawa. after a long months of not seeing him and we dont usually text talaga. kaya shock ang lola mo! amfy! haha.. the last time im with him was when we chill at garahe then starbucks.(my former blog).. the cheekbone. remember? haha.. mejo kilig? mejo.haha.. since he started reviewing last april for the june exam we never hang out again. i only see him when we go to mall and he's with best jason..just a smile and we never talk. dunno y? ahha.. and then now. he's texting me.. LOL.. nothing to expected. haha..:) im just happy now..

anyways im so tired and sleepy. just arrived from my morning duty yet im still doin this blog. haha im so excited to share to you guys my story. haha..for now.. i have to sleep muna. haha.. love love..;)

ignoring me??

2008-06-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

i think he's really ignoring me. avoiding me or what so ever. there is a guy whom i met during my hs days. after 4 years of not talking to him finally we text again. he was my ex crush during my hs days. puppy love i guess. he's name is jim..:)

because of my boredom i miscall everyone in my contacts. then he replied and asked hu i am. so i said it's me tiNA.. he doesn't remember me. so i keep on insisting that we met before. he said sorry because he can recognize me.. so after a week i called him, it's just because im so bored and no one to talk to. it was our first conversation over the fone. and guess what he said. that my voice was really familiar.. same with his ex. wtf..ali:) he keep on asking me if i was his ex.. oh c'mon. how it happened? haha.. then after then after talking we decided to chat in ym. so he shared to me what happened to him in past 4 years. were neighbors. my dorm and his dorm were really near in each others. i was 4th year hs and he was 1st year college that time. i always see him making tambay in my dorm. so i have a crush on him. we texted before but he have a gf that time. i told him that he was so suplado that time. if i introduce my self daw and if he knows raw na may crush ako sa knya that time he courted me raw!.. OMG.. i was so Kilig.. ha

we have a good conversation in ym. we chat until 3am.. then after that night we never talk to each other na. he never text. before that he said to me that hindi xa palagi nagloload since wala naman xa palagi nkakatext. then i tried to call him but i cnanot contact him.then after 3days his fone rings. he answered it. it was 10pm. he said to me "ano ba? natutulog na ko.badtrip ako." then i justsaid to him sorry and back to sleep. i think he doesn't want to talk to me na. he doesn't like me. i was really sad last night. i dunno y. its just hes ignoring me. before that i saw him OL in ym. so i PM him. but he did not reply. he singed out immediately. i text him aking if he's avoiding me. but he did not reply. until now. dunno y. im sad..:(

samu't sari...

2008-06-12T05:07:00.000-07:00

ang dami ko naisip, nakita at naramadaman ngayong araw na to. di ko alam kung dapat ba ako matuwa o malungkot na lang..:p

1. DUTY. napakaaga ko gumising. 4:30 am. di ko lam kung excited ba ako magduty oh natatakot lang akong malate. hay. im not happy wid my 1st duty for this sem. aaminin ko im not comfortable sa bago kong groupmates. me hang over pa rin ako sa old mates ko. hay mamimiss ko un mga jokes nila ang kakulitan, asaran ang pagsusugal kapag di kami toxic. at gusto ko makagroup si jolly niNa kasi nakikita ko sarili ko sa kanya. napanis alway ko kanina. hindi talga ako ngsasalita. ewan ko ba.

2.STROKE. most of my patients today have mild stroke. buti nlng mild lang. kawawa naman kasi sila. tapos napakainit pa sa ER. tulo n nga pawis ko sa pgkuha ng VS nila. hay. toxic.

3. BREAKFAST. wala man lang laman un tiyan ko non ngduty ako. kasi naman leche na ulan yan di tuloy kami nakaalis. pinagtyagaan namen un canteen. isang bread at C2 lang nakain ko. kaya kanda hilo hilo na ko sa pag duty ko. amp

4. LUNCH. i have a good lunch kasi before ako umuwi ng dorm bumili muna ako ng food. 2 bbq at isang rice may libre pang ice un kasi suki na ko don. haha kakahiya nga lang kasi kagabi nkabasag kami ay si stephen pala ng mga plato. haha take note: mga plato. hindi plato lang hahaha

5. NAP. antok na antok kaya ako paguwi ko ng dorm. tapos etong si angie naman pupunta sa dorm kasi bibigay nia un sabon na binili ko. sa kakahintay ko sa kanya nakatulog pa rin ako. nagising lang ako sa tawag nia kasi andon na daw xa sa baba ng dorm ko. ahhaha

6. MOVIE. to namang si paul na hindi ko pa namemeet na pinsan ni jason ng aaya manood ng kung fu panda. haha. i want. pero nahihiya ako kasi never ko pa xa nameet tapos manonood kagad kami ng movie. haha. ang kulit..

7. LRT. nagulat naman ako ang haba ng pila sa pureza station. tapos sabi ng isang mama saken libre daw un sakay sa lrt from 5pm - 7pm. wow. astig ah. siksikan nga lang. haha.

8. SPA. finally i got my whole body massage again. after 1 month ngyon lang ulit naulit. sobrang dami ko ng stress muscles at sobrang sakit na ng likod ko. amp the best talaga magmasahe si ms. eden. super nice pa nia at ang dami niang kwento.:P

9. MANGO. wala sa isip ko bumili ng damit. pero pag pasok ko sa mango napabili ako ng wala sa oras. trip ko lang. cute kasi.. purple na racer back. hehe

10. TACO. sabi ko before sa sarili ko i wont eat tacos kung hindi libre ni simoun. eh sobrang natatakam na ko kanina. napabili tuloy ako. haha. nagyon hindi ko maubos ubos un isang platter. hahaha... napakatakaw kasi. haha

hay di ko alam kung ano ba talaga naramdaman ko ngayon. basta busog ako masaya na ko. haha

ELMO..NOT EMO..

2008-06-07T17:59:00.000-07:00

those memories...

♥i can' piece things together

with these eyes of black and white.

the way i used to be. something touch my heart..

something made me feel content. do i understand myself?

please don't go anywhere. i never meant to hurt you.

i was running for emotions i wasn't ready for.

but what am i supposed to do next time.,

if i don't have you to depend on?♥

♥♥♥

not so EMO...

i got my LAST KISS FROM HIM...:p

SO ELMO...♥

the battle..:p

2008-06-07T10:04:00.000-07:00

after 5mos. of not seeing him, rejected calls and texts..fiinally we meet again..:p one week ago.. he texted me and i was really surprise.. im not expecting na that he will text me pa..he said that he just miss me and wanna see me.. so i was really really excited for that.. i miss him din.. uber..:p and imagine after a crucial break up. ngayon lang ulit kami ngkita.. hay walang ngbago sa kanya.. ganon pa rin xa. payatot.. mejo humaba na un hair.and still quiet.but he still laugh at my jokes though it was corny. that's y i love him. he give a laugh at my corniest jokes..:p we agreed that it will be better if we just stay friends. he's not mad na and he almost forgot na wat happened between us.. im so glad that we settled everything na..so there were no worries na.. im not emo na just elmo na lang..hahahaha...I WON THE BATTLE..:O finally ive move on..

"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥"♥♥

the reason why were still suffering is not because the love has ended. but because it still continue eventhough we know evrything is over..:p

"♥♥THAT'S A LESSON..FROM TINA..:P"♥♥

emotina:(

2008-06-06T06:24:00.000-07:00

i am destined to be in sorrow,

blinded by love,

longing for affection,

reaching the stars,

begging for smiles,

wrapped by illusions,

imagining kisses,

dreaming for touches,

hiding pain and anger and eaten by frustrations.

but....

still....

waiting for someone who will dig me from the mud i am in....:(

>>la lang tamang emote lang bago matulog..:(

bakit?

2008-06-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

bakit nga ba? di ko lam eh..:(

basta simula non sumakay ako kanina sa LRT nbadtrip na ko.. ksi napakasikip..ang daming tao.friday then 6pm na un.so talagang ganon karami ang tao? ayoko pa naman sa masikip.ewan ko nga ba bakit ng lrt pa ko.. next non nglalakad ako papuntang sm, un mga taong nkakasalubong ko nsasagi un bag ko. maliit na nga un bag ko nsasagi pa nila. badtrip. na lalo ako.. tapos naisip ko mg puntang salon. mgpa hair wax ako. un babae naman n mg hhairwax saken napaka pakealamera. pinipilit nia ako mg pa hair reborn eh sabi ko na ngang hair wax lang. hay bakit ba ang daming tao na super kulit..??

masikip na nga pilit pang sumisiksik..

nasagi ka n nga di man lang magsori..

marunong pa sa gusto mo....

hay... buti n lang nakasabay ko sa jeep u dati kong classmate..atleast na refresh naman ako.. nglakad kami papuntang dorm saby kwentuhan. hay. bkit kaya ang daming manloloko kumita lang ng pera. bakit kaya me mga taong kelangan hold-upin un clasmate ko samantalang estujante lang kami.. bakit kayo ganto ang araw ko ngayon.. ang ayos ayos nong asa bahay ako. kain tulog lang...pag dating dito sa dorm nalungkot na ko. pag higa ko sa kama ko, napaluha na lang ako.. di ko lam kung bakit.. walang makausap. walang magawa.. hay ang lungkot ng buhay..

matutulog na lang siguro ako...

i♥tina..

2008-05-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

i felt so loved and blessed this past days.. bein loved by my family and my friends. was the greatest feeling ever.. i have a good dad who works hard for me and my fam. i have a caring mom.and two siblings who stood by my side always..:p

(best pAw)

(cindy, juney,paw)

(mean cindy)

i have my greatest classmates whom who treated me the most. i have my best (paw), i have my mean (cindy).. without these two gurls college life is worthless.. no dull moment with them.the best gimikera ever.. hahahha

♥tina must love.♥

♥if you love me.. take a pic like this and send in my eadd..(kikayqt16@yahoo.com)...

ahahahhah

love tina..:p

what happen?

2008-05-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

this week is full of mixed emotions..

last sunday (mother's day) i have a fight with my mom which started last sat and up to mother's day..yeah im so bad daughter. i never said sorry and i never even greet her a happy mother' s day.. huhuhu... i just got back to manila with a fight with her.. why? it's just a simple thing.. we both have a high pride. but she's the mother and im just her dauhter.. today is her birthday..i greet her.. i texted her but she did not reply at me.but to my friends whom i asked to greet my mom, she replied them.. amp.. bitter pa rin saken un mom ko. and dad called me last night,he told me to buy mom a gift. hmm..what gift?? and tom. ill be going home and i don't know how im goin to talk to my mom.. huhuhu...

i have a one week duty..from 2-10pm at tondo...and the weather.. oooo...???? but i enjoyed my rotatation there. our area is OPD. it will really test your patience. for the patients who are so demanding.. hahaha.. and for the controversial patients that will come.. hahaha..they made us gossip and gossip.. LOL:p love those pretty pregnant mom..:o favoritism? haahh.and for osang, my groupmate.she really made me happy all the times. though were toxic, once i saw her and make asar asar with him i can't help to laugh loud. hahaha

wednesday. we don't have a duty. my honey and I decided to watch "what happens in vegas". uhmmm.. it was great.. ashton and cameron were so "kulet".. and tawa talaga kami to death.. LOL.."yes, the sex was great"..it was the best line for me.. and when mayson told it to joy, her friends was their and it was heard by the whole crowd. and it just like nakakahiya.. and she was dumped.. BAD.. ahahha..

i felt BAD..

i felt HAPPY..

i felt INLOVE..

i felt LOVED..

i felt STRESSED..

honey let's go to vegas.. hahaha

happy happy bday.:p

2008-05-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

for my special as in super special friend like a special child... hahah..(kidding)

HAPPY HAPPY BDAY!.. im so excited sa pag-uwi mo (2 years to go) haha.. don't forget my burberry bag.. LOL.. and our spa and swimming to galera..but i want to go to bora kasi for sure pag uwi mo mare milyonarya ka na.. hahaha...

HAPPY HAPPY BDAY NICOLE..

MUCH LOVE FOR YOU.. MUAH MUAH

random..:p

2008-05-07T23:54:00.000-07:00

>>nothing much to do.. LOL

1.gateway

[spa then food trip with kat and stephen]

2..My 20th bday

[my 20th bday.dinner@ causeway then music21]

2. GALERA

love the henna i just don't know why it is gumamela..LOL

[love hanging out with these two gals master and kleng]

[so much love for the lan sei]

[and much love for the beach]

yes, i'm back..:o

2008-05-07T23:32:00.000-07:00

hey hey finally im on blogging mode..:p i don't have any post in the month of april..i have a long vacation before my summer class starts and im not on the mood that time to make blog.. april was the best month for me.. it was SUMMER month (damn too hot). my BIRTHDAY, and the month of FOOLISHNESS..LOL...

and now i just found myself doin' an entry here.. i just got bored though im really freakin' tired from duty (6am-2pm) but still im here on my desk doin' this.. LOL

today is MAY 8, 2008

it is our first ANNIVERSARY.. (supposed to be)..
im sad. im really sad.. we have so much plans for this day. i just got miss him badly. what if we haven't broke up. maybe were together now and really happy. no bitterness for him. i always told everyone that i have move on na from him but i really miss him..

"apology can never bring back tears that had fallen..it can't even you forget the pain that you've felt. but it surely refreshes a wounded pride and relationship..0"

;"(

2008-05-07T02:21:00.000-07:00

there will come a point in your life
when you'll get TIRED
of chasing everyone,
trying to fix everything.
It's not giving up,
it's just a realization
that you don't need all those you went after
because what you need
are those who stood by you
even if you NEVER need them..:'(

the BEST date ever..

2008-03-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

heres the guidelines to have a perfect date..

1. DON'T EXPERIMENT. first dates are not the time to try out a funky new hairstyle, or whatever it is you women do get in over your target. besides men are not hard to impress. its the PERSONALITY (not the make up) that sweeps a man off his feet.

2. RELAX. showing you're cool under pressure is a olus. regardless of how much you've anticipate the moment, act NORMAL.

3. BE A GOOD SPORT. be prepared to take whatever may come your way, especially the first date is usually full of unexpected surprises. BE GAME and your night will be truly unforgettable.

4. BE HONEST. if you want to go bowling, say so! don't be afraid to make SUGGESTIONS. men like that.

5. BE SPONTANEOUS. just GO WITH THE FLOW and don't expect what's going to happen next.

6.BE EASY. .. so please that is!one thing taht turns a guy off is a woman who sends food back at a restaurant because it wasn't time right. (too HIGH-MAINTENANCE!) it's very critical that you don't do this-its one of the biggest criteria a man considers when it comes to going for the girl to the long run.

7. NO EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE PLEASE! this is not the time to discuss your cheating ex-boyfriend, your alcoholic mother, or your psychotic boss. he's supposed to be a potential lover not a THERAPIST.

8. PAY ATTENTION. rather than talking about yourself ask him questions. however, too much interrogating and he'll feel your getting too personal. steer clear of questions like "if you were a balloon what color would you be?" Make him feel COMFORTABLE, not as if their going to pass or fail a quiz.

9. STAY IN TONE WITH CURRENT EVENTS. Make a small talk. and feel embarassed if you don't know what the heck he's talking about.this is usually a technique they used to break the ice and to get an idea of your INTELLIGENCE.

10. SHOW A LOT OF CONSIDERATION. especially when it comes to paying the bill. don't whip up your wallet right away. wait and be SENSITIVE to the situation. some men prefer to pay but if he is not making no effort, don't be too exact as to show how you'll split the bill. just pay half and and be done with it. even if he did eat four courses while you had a salad. this shows a lot of character and will work to your advantage in the long run.

11. TRY TO BE THE LIFE OF THE DATE. no amtter how bad it is going STICK IT OUT to the end. unless your date is drunk and displaying inappropriate behavior, stay to the side until he drops you off the door . he might go around telling his friends that you just abandone dhim and left him feel for dead.

12. DON'T ASSUME. just because your out together don't think that your already a couple. just be SINCERE and you'll leave a great first impression. you'll never know what good things will come your way. ..he might even ask you out again tomorrow.

chill after finals..:0

2008-03-14T03:46:00.000-07:00

after the epistaxis finals and the semester was over.its the time for the students to chill. ladies night out again. the mean gurls were not complete. cindy was absent. she missed the fun with sir rufuz. yeah our CI's joined us. and it was the BEST GIMIK EVER.. guillys again. amp.from chillin out at sbux, counting down fiday's bday though it was an accident that we met her there. and were glad that she was there because of the couch. freak. LOL. there were many students reviewing there and there were no more tables and chairs availabe. thanks to fiday again.:0

[paw, me and fiday]

it was our second gimik with our classmates.and were very euphoric when we heard that sir rufuz will be joining us. he was our favorite. drool. oh i mean drew arellano. woot! u must love it. evryone mus love it. he's the best prof. ever (mean, till here i build up here,LOL)..idol?but its true! and the crowd were diaphoresis. haha. freak!

[with sir rufuz]

eventhough cindy is not around, paw and me stand up.! LOL. very confident. the "tatsulok" is not complete. and our dress were vey striking. isn't it? ahaha. summer is near!.LOL. im glad i never missed the fun. i wont let to miss it.!LOL. since it was ladies night out. there were many people ditchin' around. LOL.and paw and i really enjoyed the night. apple bottom jeans.. they say im LOW.. must not forget! haha

[paw and me]
boys drool. amp.

for more pictures you may check my multiply. the hagardness of every one. hahaha...

guillys part3

ordinary girl

2008-03-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

heres my part.. tell me if im really a fool or im just a stupid pretender..freak.:(

last tuesday..
we dont have any stuffs na talk about. as in lahat n npagusapan namen. paulit ulit nalang,LOL
suddenly he asked me something and i was shocked. heres the conversation:

tinky:mahal mo ko?
winky:tinatanong pa ba un?
tinky:oo
winky:bakit?
tinky:kelangan eh
winky:alam mo na naman un eh
tinky:hindi pa eh
winky:nasabi ko na un before
tinky:kelangan ko ulit marinig
winky:may mgbabago pa ba pag sinagot ko?
tinky:wala ka pala b' eh
winky:akala mo lang wala
tinky: oh bakit di mo masagot
winky:kasi di na importante un ngyon
tinky:wlala ka tlaga. wooo

i really get mad talaga with him. since yesterday till now were not talking to each other. i dont know why. i was so busy with my stuffs ewan ko lang xa.but that night. i told him that someone annoyed me.and i was so ANGRY. he asked me if it was my bf. ("bf?i dont have bf nga ngayon eh". LOL) is aid it was my special friend. he told me that i was so kind to that person and i was martyr. then i said life is like that.UNFAIR. then he asked me if it was him. and i said "yeah it was you". and he NEVER believed me. kakaasar.

ordinary boy

2008-03-10T09:49:00.000-07:00

this is the part II of my story about tinky. i hate him so much right now. he texted me an hour ago. and teasing me again. and he told me to make lambing lambing with him. here's our conversation that make me mad at him..

tinky: lambingin mo ko.
winky:ayoko nga.
tinky:try lang
winky:oh di ikaw mgtry.
tinky:ayoko corny eh.
winky: lahat naman sayo corny eh.
tinky:tanong k na lang kahit ano.
winky:love mo ko?
tinky:oo
winky:bestfriend?
tinky:yep
winky:not more than that?
tinky:di na siguro.
winky:bakit?
tinky:me gf ako
winky:takot ka?
tinky:mahal ko
winky:di naman kita aagawin sa kanya
tinky:la naman akong sinabi ah
winky:though even!
tinky:wla naman mngyayari eh..

END

i dont know if he dont want na talk to me or he fall asleep na or what. hay.. im wrong ba? kasi i asked him pa bout that. i was kidding lang. but the joke was on me. amp. i hate him talaga.

tell me how you feel..

2008-03-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

♥i still have a hang over in my 2days vacation in my province (ala eh!).LOL.
and now. back to normal. it will be our last week in school. woot!♥ i love it. after the defense ,party mode again. and i am excited for that. ♥. but the whole day i was windang. hmm. why? here's the story. wat a freak.♥

♥i know everyone here had a best friend, either a guy or a girl. i got one guy bestfriend. his name is simoun but i used to call him "tinky". why? becoz of the teletubies. because they were the choices in our exams. we laugh so hard bout that. what a crazy choices. LOL.♥

♥he was my classmate/seatmate(2nd year-1st sem). hmm.if were not a seatmate i guess we wont be bestfriend. and were seatmate only in one subject. at first i dont find him cute.LOL. he knows that. but he was really kind. he rides on my jokes.my corniest jokes. and after class (9pm) sabay kaming umuuwi.. isnt it sweet.? that's our routine. we text every night. he was corny also. then our classmates noticed our closeness so they start teasing us and make different stories bout me and simoun ..(inggitera). since that di na xa sumasaba saken unuwi. but still we still texting each other. ♥

♥he was my classmate for just one sem. after that sem di na. but still ngtetext pa din kami. minsan ngkikita pag my time since were on the same university.♥

♥we already celebrated our first year anniversary last june 2007. as bestfriends. we dont know what our real status. since i have a bf that time. and him? he was single. he was the one who come with me on the mall, who helped me to buy shoes, who eat with me, who laughed with me.. i was very vocal to him when it comes to my feelings. after jet and i broke up, i said to him everything how i feel towards him. that i like him. yeah it was true. but he doesnt believe me perhaps he knows me as a player.amp.♥

♥this january, i asked him to tell me how he feel. he just said "wala akong feelings kahit kanino.wala akong nararamdaman,kung un ang gusto mong malaman." i asked him again, "even to me?", and he replied, "oo kahit sayo." tears fall on my eyes. it hurts. i was just only a bestfriend to him. amp. ♥

♥after two weeks he told me, "b' me sasabihin ako sayo.". i asked him what it is. he said "me gf na ulit ako.". oh what the hell he's talking about. isnt he said that he dont have feelings for anyone and then now hes telling me that he had a gf na. wat a freak mind he have!

♥i accepted that fact. it's ok an with me. actually they were 2mos na nga eh. so who cares bout that. but he's treatment with me never changed.im glad for that. and guess. before he had a gf we have an agreement that after 10 years we will get married. sweet? hahaha. i asked him if he beieves on that. he said he was hopeful. it melted my heart.♥

♥♥this afternoon we have a silly fight. because i asked him to wait me in manila since we never seen each other for a couple of months. but he said that he will go to laguna na raw. i got angry. he's excuses! amp. if he don't want just tell me di ba? and we argue pa with different stuffs. until he said "b' kung me chance ba ko dati mging gf ka?", i was shocked for that questions. windang.♥.. i asked him wat he means bout that. he said,
"non classmate pa tayo or after non.". i just said that i have a bf that time. and he just told me that he dont have a chance. i said to him, "ngyon me chance na, kaw naman un di pwede.".. he said na it was happened lately. after 9 years we will have a chance. amp. asa pa. until now i feel mad with him. he's not texting me pa. naiinis talaga ako. kaasar.amp.♥

bkit ganon? palagi nalang opposite. sana ng gf na lang xa non time na my bf ako. bakit nagon pa. di ba? he was always saying pa na selfish daw ako. and hindi ko mgets un kasi he never expalains.. hay. windang. windang.

♥stunner♥

2008-03-07T06:58:00.000-08:00

there is no significance in this blog ..
but there are some of the significant phrases in english language.
"sorry" and "iloveyou". but a five-word phrase is sometimes the most important like
"tell me when to stop". sometimes we have to put the red light on ourselves, and realize that one of the most important things in life, aside from "forgiveness" and "love" is simply "CONTROL".

and the biggest question now in my mind is:

"how can i avoid him in my mind?"

i was inspired by the quote that kit send me a while ago. it made me think and think. i'm not on the good mood. i thought were going out tonight.again with "him" and jason and twin. drink again. but i promise my self that i wont consume beer for this week since i have a period. i don't want to get sick again. that my blood will totally lost. and it scares me a lot. thanks. i survived.

speaking of survived. i just finished watching "maging sino ka man book2" and it touched me. celine died.tears fall on my eyes. yeah i was affected. and i was corny. i know that. shes my favorite character in that teleserye. her love story with jb touches many viewers perhaps.her strong faith to live because of her love for jb is very admirable. but it don't last. they have a tragic ending. it really made me cry. i was so emotera lng talaga tonight.

from celine:

"i want our love story to come in full circle."

"I want to end where I started loving you...our love...it was the BEST. "

i feel sad.. and sleepy. our supposed hang out was cancelled. and i miss it. it will be better if i sleep na lng early and be ready for my saturday class.. happy weekend guys..♥

same faces..

2008-03-06T02:16:00.000-08:00

fellas..:0
hey hey. wonderin who were they? uhm well..
let me first say sorry to DOn. tatsi, jet and jolo.
without asking permission to post their picture here.(mean)
PEACE..
uhm. para nman expose sila diba?
they also deserves a space here.
di ko na sinali si best kasi u know him n nman.(the one na kasama ko sa sbux)
but kahawig rn xa ng apat na to.ehehe
arent these four guys looks like?
can you please tell me sang part? LOL
kasi i found them cute at me similarities sila. ehehe..

nicole. eto na sila. para di ka na malito. nilgay ko na sila dito. hahaha
[don(upper left), tatsi (upper right),]
[jet(bottom left). jolo (bottom right)]

surviving a break up

2008-03-04T08:09:00.000-08:00

Got this from the last book I read, I just want to share them with, erm.. To whom will I share this nga pala? No one's reading my post naman. To myself na lang!!Haha!!

1. Don't ever be sorry for being sad. And don't apologize for crying- what you are going through is completely normal and healthy.
> What kind of person in the right mind and had invested so much emotionally in the relationship wouldn't cry over a breakup? Of course crying is normal!!

2. Don't bother asking why.
> There's a possibility that after a breakup, you'll be asking "Why?" for the rest of your life. Well, don't. Even the deepest answers couldn't answer your question. You know in your heart that you wouldn't accept ant explanation but still you kept on asking.

3. Whatever you do, don't listen to any sad songs or music. It will only make you feel worse.
> Most people usually lock themselves in their room and listen so sad music the entire evening. You don't need this. Yu're torturing yourself. What you need is a pick-upper. Something that will put you in a better mood.

4. Beauty may only be skin deep and tru beauty might lie in the soul, but it doesn't hurt to have your outsides looking good when your insides are badly bruised.
> Treat yourself to a makeover. Experiment with your hair, face, clothes, etc. Do something
different.

5. Don't be bitter.
> Very simple. Learn to forgive. If you won't take that bitternes away, you're the one who'll be suffering. Not him.

6. Travel, go somewhere you've never been.
> You need to get away from your immediate surroundings and realize that there is a huge world out there waiting for you. It doesn't mean going to some place far. Just go to a place you have NEVER been.

7. When you lock yourself in your room-- miserable and weepy-- the space picks up the negative energy and your room becomes a depressing place to be. You need to let out the sadness and allow some new air in.
> There's more to life than just detaining youself in the four corners of your room. Be an outdoor gal!

8. Find a new passion.
> Discover something new in yourself. Being good at something will help you feel better. Plus, you won't have time to think about the ex if you're busy with something.

9. Sometimes, if you are having difficulty coming to terms with something, all you have to do is take a step back and look at the bigger picture.
> Don't look at the breakup too closely. Step back, and look at the relationship in its entirety. It'll help.

10. Being single doesn't have to be about being alone.
> Okay, one chapter in your life has ended. And one person has walked away. But hey, you have your friends, your family and a whole bunch of new people you can meet nad have fun with.

***Moving on is not as easy as 1,2,3. But TIME really heals all wounds, even the deepest and most painful lacerations in your heart. Some only need a month, but some take years to heal. But it will all fall on the same piece. You're back on track. You're whole again. You just need to help yourself to make the healing faster.

??? i already post it in my multiply acount. i just want to share it again here..:0

cheekbone..:0

2008-03-01T23:44:00.000-08:00

it takes me a lot of time to think if im gonna post our picture here. but i think he deserves a space here... let me introduce him to all of you.. my best.. haha.. twin is teasing me for this picture. we belong raw in our cheekbones. LOL. u think? AHAHA....

uhm.. you have to comment on this.. at starbucks playing around the world.. :0 united states. and different logic and tricks. ahahaha...

much love.♥tina♥

around the world..:0

2008-03-01T18:22:00.000-08:00

hey hey.. looks who's happy right now? haha
crazy tina..LOL

let me share you what happened last night (nicole and kleng you have to comment on this) hahaha

START:

by 9pm we have to meet in starbucks then later we gonna drink. but jason (twin's bf) is still in the seminar in car org. by that time. he told us that he can't pick us in dorm so we have to go to in sbux nlng and he will follow us there after the seminar since he was in ortigas pa daw. so i just lay down in my bed and i assumed that were not goin na. u know the feeling of being lil' prepared and bit nervous and after all it might not happen. it freaks me! and napayosi ako don ha. hahah.. uhm then twin decided na we gonna go n nga lang in sbux.

the cab.

that driver was really freak. we told him to bring us in sbux morato. twin and i were busy talking to each other and guess what that driver bring us in other sbux, what a freak! i know we have a fault kasi were not watchin our way nman and busy chatting but hell i told him that it is morato not in q.ave.! and jason is already in sbux na. know what naikot na nmen ang buong timog. haha! like that. and twin make bola bola the driver because the bill is running. ahaha.... he don't know the exact place pala. and i made him away away pa. kakairita kasi. twin told him that he's date is waiting for her and the driver replied "makakapaghintay naman un". well it made us laugh. i told him "baka mwala ung grasya". hahah.. finally were with jason na rin. i think we gonna lost it. ahahah

and where is "him'?

dunno. haha. then we picked him up near sbux. then he entered in car. were both on the back seat. a simple hi from him. he was talking and talking to jason and me?? natatameme. haha. then jason asked why were not talking to each other. uhm i told him bumubwelo pa lang ako,then (him) told "text kasi ng text"... haha. napansin nia i was busy texting. oh well i dont know what should i say to him... nahiya tuloy ako.i stop texting from then on...

garahe...

we drink in garahe. u know me im not a drinker.. a small amount of beer made me drunk na and my faces were starting to red na and i got rashes na. haha... but that time i drink 2 bottles of red horse. omg nakaya ko. but im reddish n tlga and have rashes. napansin rin nia un. i felt shy tuloy. hahaha. tas jason and twin pa always teasing me with him pa. nakakahiya kaya.! swear.. i dont like that feelings no. parang gusto ko nalang kainin ng upuan. ahaha... we shared differnet stories. jason was so kulit. lasing na kasi. were just only four. but we really have fun tlaga... i love it..
he acccompanied pa into the cr. then nakita nga nya na im getting red na. nakakahiya tlaga. then he asked me if im allergic to a certain liquor which is true. hay. i should stop drinking na..im shy to talk to him na kami lang dalwa kasi twin is always teasing me. nahihiya tlga ako..

dolce..

by 2am we decided to go to dolce. we have a guest list their since my ate's friend is the owner of that bar. we never been there. so it will be our first time. as we arrived . omg. super haba ng lane. as in pila ha. hahaha then we asked the bouncer.. (hahah) that were on the guest list then cut oof na raw. by 1am n lng daw un guest list. ahaha. too bad... we decided nlng to go to sbux nlng. chill.

sbux..

chill chill lang. ahahah... mind games. hahah. ang kulit ni jason. di nia kagad magets un logic ng around the world. but "him" he know it. he's sitting besides me. and were laughing together na ha. he's asking me if dont know the answer. ang daya. hahaha..mr right. is the only thing na hindi nia talga magets. hahaha... i laughed him. bad tina. hahaha..the color adding. united states. other terms. the jokes. the logic and logic that i think jason and "him" just invented those stuffs. hahaha. the tricks. oh well i wish u join us.. hahaha

end.

nauna xa hiantid na jason. ahm. simple bye again.amp. twin is still teasing. because she gave my number to "him". he's not asking naman. nahihiya tuloy ako. ... amp, nahilo ako sa pgddrive ni jason. haha.. then ngstop kami kasi feeling ko masusuka talga ako. at nsuka nga naman ako. hay. iwont drink n nga tlaga. lagi nlgn ako sumusuka everytime na umiinom ako. amp. ang sakit sakit pa ng tiyan ko that time. huhuu buti la na xa non. kakhiya. i felt bad tuloy. hahaha!

"him"

i think your thinking hu is he? i really don't want to mention his name here. i don't know. ayoko! ahhah.. he was jason's bestfriend. i always call him best since i call jason best too. it was our second meeting. the first meeting is on the party. he was nice naman. and to think of that after seeing his fs acount i think i have to avoid myself to him. uhm i mean i dont want my self to like him. why? when he got a long hair and braces, he was really really like my freakin ex. he's another resemblance. and it sucks seeing him. and made me palpitate. hahah.affected? anyways i don't know why were both shy when he entered in the car then he's sitting far away from me pa. but he say hi. and smile. and look after we drink he's sitting closer na to me huh. hahah. and were tlaking to each other na. as in were both teasing na rin. ahah. we have pictures together. i dont know if i have to show you guys.. then twin is always mentioning "best u have her number na di ba?", then i was shocked for his reply. he already memorized my number. hahaha!.. crazy. then i heard from them pa n may knourt xa na tibo. hahahah! weirdoo??? LOL.. crazy crazy... hahaha. but let me tell you this i don't have a feelings for him. i just found him nice lang and since he was myex resemblance. that's all.i got shylang to him coz jason and twin is always teasing me to him. the nerve hahahah..

then i received a text from unknown number this mornig saying "ingat kayo". uhm this mornig ko nlng nabasa when i woke up. i guess it was him. uhm.. well.. DONe..

i gotta see my boo..

2008-03-01T02:55:00.000-08:00

tina:tuliro

i was so crazy. i was talking myself to the mirror practicing hom im gonna say to him my simple "hi,hello. how you doin?", or should i be energetic to say "best! i think namiss kita. u miss me din ba?".. i don't know if i can make bola pa later. i know twin is going to tease me with him. hay. it's a set up date na alam ko. hahah. ang weird. until now.. tuliro pa rin ako. i was bit excited. konteng time na lang. im gonna see him. buti dont want to feel this,.. grrrr....

"I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight"

the feelings. haha! uhm.well i will behave later. prim and proper. i need more jokes. guys can you please tell your jokes.. haha.. jason tried to laugh in my jokes. i need one now. haha. i dont want to mention his name here.(confidential)..LOL

"With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel."

tonight ive fallen and i cant get up. i need your loving hands to come and pick me up....sing with me... im ready. ready.. para akong kid n ngyon lng ngakacrush. LOL. gotta see my boo...

vulnerable part II

2008-03-01T00:44:00.000-08:00

tina--feeling bit nervous.

after one month of not seeing him after a great party is not easy.
and tonight everything might change.
i don't want to expect on something.
expect the unexpected or come what may.
twin invited me tonight to have a drink with jason and "him".
i don't know if i should come or not.
yeah im not comfortable to be with him again.
im guilty. i almost forget him.
but now im afraid what might im gonna feel if
i see him again.. i know myself..
i can't resist the feelings though i hide it.
just afraid for something..

---apple bottom jeans..

uhm. i had a great time with him before. yeah he was so nice naman,
i just hate myself lang kasi...
HE WAS ANOTHER RESEMBLANCE OF my FREAKIN' EX.
wat a freak. that's why im avoiding myself to see him
im just gonna miss jet over and over again..
but it will be the last i think.
im not excited. im nervous. totally freak!
i was so shy lang to twin coz i already said yes.

hay tina...
nguguluhan tlga ako. parang gusto ko ng umurong.

5 steps in life..:0

2008-02-29T05:40:00.000-08:00

just finished watchin' "my big love". uhm it was great. i laughed. yeah im corny! but toni always made me laugh..:0 my big love ---- one great love (as he told me before)... toni was a gym instructor and sam was a fat man! oh c'mon triple of my weight.! LOL.. she had a 5 steps to have a perfect body.. uhm but i think i dont need those steps (kapal. the bilbil!) LOL.. but im gonna apply those steps in my life.. to be stronger.. yeah!

step 1.
SET A GOAL

>>my goal is to be a successful nurse in the future. (wish me luck)... i have to study harder first and passed all the exams.. but i think i have to love my course first.doubt.. XD.

step 2.
REASONS

>> to fulfill my dad's dream.. to prove my dad he's right..

step 3.
DO TODAY NOT TOMORROW

>>lazy tina.. i admit it. im getting old yet still not responsible enough. ill be better now in my studies..

step 4.
INSPIRATION

>>>who's my inspiration nga ba? uhm. DON? no way. hahah! my family.. i love love them soo much!

step 5.
BE HAPPY!

>>ill be happy if ill be earning na green money! hahahhaa! if i fulfilled my dreams na.. and if i proved my dad that i can do better..

wish me luck guys.. aja! kaya naten to.. chill..let's go clubbin'! lol..

go on girl..:0

2008-02-27T02:13:00.000-08:00

YEAH.. I LOVE MYSELF. DEFINITELY.
nothing to worry much..
live my life to the fullest!
party gurl TINA.. ahahaa..
it's nice to be back in normal life.
so was abnormal before? nuh-uh.. ahahhaha
life must go on..aja!
goodbye BITTERNESS..!